i'm tired

[alexisbetter]

so today was alright . had school from 8oclock until noonish, boring as always . then worked from 2 to 6, came home showered and then went to kyles . i don't get boys, i really don't but hey whatever . so yeah we went to see highschool musical because we're nerds . it was a cute movie . kyle is cuter . my mom caught me smoking ciggs today, not so good . she told me how it's the only thing and the biggest thing that she regrets doing in life . GREAT, just what i want is to make my mother dissapointed in me . it's such a joke, no matter how hard i try, nothing seems to work out in my favor . i bust my ass with work school and dance, and honestly i feel like i get nothing in return . the only person i feel that shows me unconditional love and respect is my friend tara . like no matter how stupid of a decision i make, or how idiotic i act, she's still there for me . my mother claims that no matter what, i can turn to her . yeah bullshit . some days, i wish i could move so far away, and forget about everything, start over . but that will never happen . actually, i don't know why i just said never, because i do believe that anything is possible . i say i wish that i could move far away, but i'm an idiot, because i know i'd miss the people in my life . whatever, i guess i have to take the good with the bad, right?

i'm confused, cold and tired; and i have work at 10am (it's 12:30 now) so i should hit the pillow - goodnight