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[alexis_depetro]

i miss him soo much it's terrifying.

when i go to visit him, there's a bench next to where he lays.
but instead, i lay next to him.  & i hug the ground.  & i cry.  a lot.

...they said i was one of the last things on his mind.
...they said i was one of the last people he talked about.
...they said he was so proud of me.
i don't know if that comforts or upsets me.

i do know that he's always on my mind.
every single second of every single day.

i know that i would give my life for him to have his back.
i know that he was a much better person than i will ever be.
i know that he was my motivation to do well.

i need him to come back.
i wish miracle's were real.
i wish he were still here.