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[alexgrisel]

i think right now the reason i am so indescribable is that i have just been told something tonight that i thought i would never hear. I guess to start off why and how i feel is to tell u why i feel this way and what I think about all this. I am the type of person that if i feel a certain way about something i expect it to be such. Well recently i have been that way anyways. I find myself being extremely lucky these days. NOW this never happens. lol. Anyone who knows me knows i am not lucky in any sense. So i find this one person who makes me, me. But of course fate and god are making me take a step back. Saying, "Look here, maybe your luck hasent changed. Not so fast!" Its an indescribable feeling. Yet again i remind you of how i feel. I cant take my mind off of him. Or what he has informed me of 3 hours and 50 minutes ago. Now i am of faith, but i also believe in karma, fucked up huh? Its like all those bad things i did to all those people are coming and kicking me again. All those times i cheated and lied to almost everyone i have ever known. So i lose the love of my life. If he goes and does what he has so wanted to do for so long. I could lose him forever. And i am torn, cant tell him how i feel b/c he wont do what he wants and yet i dont want him to because i will lose him. I guess it comes down to letting him do what he wants. Me losing him, but he will be happy. It sucks knowing what is going to happen but you cant stop it because u cant tell the person it is going to happen to. You just want them to be happy. So u let them. If they fall they fucking fall. fuck...

Artist: Damien Rice
Album: O
Title: The Blowers Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new