I need an immediate pick me up
It seems that everything comes so easy for people. And this is pertaining to career choices, socialism (as in people not, the governmental meaning), college essays.
I've decided on studying communications in college if I ever get there but, am I going to be happy? Why wasn't I born a talented artist like Nashla? Paintings just seem to come to her like oxygen. I mean, I can entertain people but, I sometimes don't even find that in myself. I can act, yes, but it all depends on the character I'm trying to portray because it is sooo hard at times.
I've gotten better with my social anxiety but, still not at the point where I could just go to a party and expect not to have cold sweats.
Caleb just wrote up his rough draft (for UT, of all colleges) in, like, seconds today and I've taken three weeks to even develop my topic. It's so completely hard to start. I've barely written my rough draft introductions....I suck.
Dear Jesus,
Instill the power in me to just write an essay. One that at least keeps them reading it.
I'll become a lazy Christian.
-alex
And to think, it's my birthday in six days.