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next year, i'll be a 13th grader. a college freshman. holy crap. i will have a dorm. and a roommate. i can't wait.
senior year so far... hmm.. well it's really not as great as it is said to be, probably because it's so hard, but hopefully after i'm done with applications and i actually get into a school, i won't take it as seriously anymore. i am excited for christmas & thanksgiving.. but they are going to be nowhere near what they were a year ago. i miss everything about 1st semester of last year. i suppose the difference is that last year i relied on other people to make me happy, and this year i have to make myself happy. it's hard.
i just can't wait to be freeeeeeeeee. and get away from these people and shake it up and start new things and be in a completely different environment. i don't know if i want to go to boulder of u of i.. or if i'll get in to them... but it's so scary. because they would both be perfect for me. this will probably be my hardest decision so far. shit. i'll probably just pick out of a hat.
goodnight loves.
senior year so far... hmm.. well it's really not as great as it is said to be, probably because it's so hard, but hopefully after i'm done with applications and i actually get into a school, i won't take it as seriously anymore. i am excited for christmas & thanksgiving.. but they are going to be nowhere near what they were a year ago. i miss everything about 1st semester of last year. i suppose the difference is that last year i relied on other people to make me happy, and this year i have to make myself happy. it's hard.
i just can't wait to be freeeeeeeeee. and get away from these people and shake it up and start new things and be in a completely different environment. i don't know if i want to go to boulder of u of i.. or if i'll get in to them... but it's so scary. because they would both be perfect for me. this will probably be my hardest decision so far. shit. i'll probably just pick out of a hat.
goodnight loves.