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lately, life has just been making my head hurt. this week was tied for the worst week of my life. the other was also this year. and i am starting to think that this week might end up taking it home. this week was so bad. SO BAD. i wanted to cry every single day. i did cry a few days. realizing that things are changing scares the crap out of me. i hate change... hate it. i guess it's not change in general, but sudden change that i can't stand. gradual change is okay. but when stuff is just one day different, i have a problem. and i don't react well. i tend to flip out. i got in a fight with one of my favorite people in the world. and i ended up apologizing even though it wasn't my fault, just because i can't stand fighting. and then once things finally start to get a little more okay, my world just... ends. my car, my love, my suzy, got stolen. like not just.. one of my friends playing a prank stolen, but stolen stolen. i woke up and it was gone. i'm so scared, this is the scariest thing that's ever happened to me. i don't know where it is and who has it and if it's still in one piece. i don't know if i'm ever going to get it back. i only had it for 2 months... it was brand new. i don't even think it's hit me yet. and tomorrow i have to tell my grandma, who is the one who bought it for me. i'm so scared... i don't know why weeks like this have to happen.