Been a While
A couple years have passed since I have been here. I blame Facebook, but I am in a major state of distrust with the thing, so here I am once more. Besides, I missed Brenna and figured this was the best way to get back in touch.
In a nutshell, I moved out, found a place with a lovely woman, made friends, grew, then got my heart broken repeatedly in short order and sent hurtling back to the earth like an unfortunate astronaut sent through reentry.
I'm shattered, still laying in my crater, trying to mend. I've moved back home, and Panda has moved into my room with me while she attains funds for a new place. That search is going well, luckily.
I am unemployed, for the most part. I have applied for a job helping to take care of my brother. I will be applying for disability as soon as I am hired and working official hours.
Most of my life is spent battling my demons. My illnesses are stronger than ever, and it is taking a lot to fight them. Fatigue is constant, and I cry off and on, though it's only tears. I wouldn't let myself sob if a bear trap snapped onto my leg. Still fighting though, and I have no plans to stop fighting.
Life is extremely quiet, yet everything seems and feels immensely dramatic. I'm trying my best, but it is very slow, if any progress. I get lonely easily, and despite trying my best t have a healthy and active lifestyle, I'm still highly distraught.
I hope for a break in this soon. I want to feel better, and to be alive again.
I miss everyone.
In a nutshell, I moved out, found a place with a lovely woman, made friends, grew, then got my heart broken repeatedly in short order and sent hurtling back to the earth like an unfortunate astronaut sent through reentry.
I'm shattered, still laying in my crater, trying to mend. I've moved back home, and Panda has moved into my room with me while she attains funds for a new place. That search is going well, luckily.
I am unemployed, for the most part. I have applied for a job helping to take care of my brother. I will be applying for disability as soon as I am hired and working official hours.
Most of my life is spent battling my demons. My illnesses are stronger than ever, and it is taking a lot to fight them. Fatigue is constant, and I cry off and on, though it's only tears. I wouldn't let myself sob if a bear trap snapped onto my leg. Still fighting though, and I have no plans to stop fighting.
Life is extremely quiet, yet everything seems and feels immensely dramatic. I'm trying my best, but it is very slow, if any progress. I get lonely easily, and despite trying my best t have a healthy and active lifestyle, I'm still highly distraught.
I hope for a break in this soon. I want to feel better, and to be alive again.
I miss everyone.