Three Months and Counting
It's been three months and counting since the departure of my first true love. The days and nights without her don't feel the same. Salina meant so much to me. I heard it said before in a different context but I believe that Salina was created for me. I spent 30 years through the wilderness of singlehood and Salina rescued me from loneliness and pessimism. This void runs very deep. I try to keep busy with my studies and work, but keeping busy doesn't supersede sadness. I wanted so much more. We wanted so much more. Marriage. Our first home. Children. Trips around the world.
I look around and it doesn't seem fair. We got criminals, rapists, terrorists running around without any love in their bodies. Here was a woman who personified love in every way. Her smile lit up a room. Her humor brought laughter to my life. Her thoughtfulness was unparalleled. All she wanted was to live a long life, be happy and cancer-free.
This disease has taken the lives of so many others including another angel - my mom. I know I'm not the only one. Like Salina, my mom was full of life and loved everyone. She helped to make me the man I am today. Fortunately she was able to see me reach different milestones like graduation and numerous birthdays. But I wanted her to live long enough to see me get married and have grandkids.
Well, life goes on they say. No matter how much it hurts, the world does not grieve with you. There is still work to do and bills to pay. If you're grateful, you wake up tomorrow to see another day. But despite my melancholy mood, I remain appreciative. I'm thankful to God for my mother and Salina. I know they are now my two guardian angels. I still have a supportive dad and two loving sisters. Will I ever find another love? God knows. But in the meantime I will hold on to the love and joy that Salina gave me for nearly two years. Her spirit will forever dwell within me.
I look around and it doesn't seem fair. We got criminals, rapists, terrorists running around without any love in their bodies. Here was a woman who personified love in every way. Her smile lit up a room. Her humor brought laughter to my life. Her thoughtfulness was unparalleled. All she wanted was to live a long life, be happy and cancer-free.
This disease has taken the lives of so many others including another angel - my mom. I know I'm not the only one. Like Salina, my mom was full of life and loved everyone. She helped to make me the man I am today. Fortunately she was able to see me reach different milestones like graduation and numerous birthdays. But I wanted her to live long enough to see me get married and have grandkids.
Well, life goes on they say. No matter how much it hurts, the world does not grieve with you. There is still work to do and bills to pay. If you're grateful, you wake up tomorrow to see another day. But despite my melancholy mood, I remain appreciative. I'm thankful to God for my mother and Salina. I know they are now my two guardian angels. I still have a supportive dad and two loving sisters. Will I ever find another love? God knows. But in the meantime I will hold on to the love and joy that Salina gave me for nearly two years. Her spirit will forever dwell within me.