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THIS POST IS GOING TO BE A ROCKY RIDE FOR MYSELF,&MAYBE EVEN OTHERS,BUT I'VE BEEN ALERTED TO THE FACT THAT DESPITE MY WILLINGNESS TO BE AN OPEN BOOK.THERE ARE STILL MANY THINGS(PARTIALLY DUE TO MY CHAOTIC LIFE-LIFESTYLE) THAT EVEN SOME OF MY 'CLOSER FRIENDS ARE UNCERTAIN ABOUT ME!
lj-cut> I WAS BORN ON AUGUST FIRST -1971(37 YRS OLD) TO A 14 YR OLD LATINA IMMAGRANT*FROM SOUTHERN OR MID MEXICO,MAYAN COUNTRY I DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT HER OR MY BIOLOGICALFATHER(HE WAS MOST LIKELY MUCH OLDER THAN HER,AND HAS BEEN SAID TO HAVE BEEN FROM EASTERN EUTOPEAN DECENT,MAYBY EVEN A GYPSY!IDON'T KNOW WHAT NAME IWAS CHRISTENED WITH AT THIS TIME.ONE THING IS CERTAIN FOR SOME REASON THEY WERE NOT REALLY READY TO RAISE A CHILD.I WAS THEN HANDED OVER TO CATHOLIC CHARITIES(THIS TIME PERIOD OF BEING AN ORPHAN LASTING AT LEAST A FEW MONTHS)I CONSCIOUSLY HOLD NO ILL AGAINST MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS FOR THIS(C'EST LE VIE N'EST PAS?)
THERE IS NO LISTED HOSPITAL ON MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE MANY THEORIES OR LINES OF THINKING CAN MAKE THAT FACT MORE IMPORTANT THAN WHAT IT PROBABLY IS.MY OWN RESEARCH INDICATES THAT WOMEN IN SO. AND CENTRAL MEXICO DURING THE TIME OF MY CONCEPTION ,AND BIRTH OFTEN HAD,AND EXPECTED TO HAVE 'WATER-BIRTHS W/MIDWIVES. EVEN THOUGH i WAS BORN IN SO.KANSAS CITY MO. U.S.A. I'M CERTAIN MI MADRE WOULD GO WITH WHAT SHE KNEW(HAVING ME AT HOME,NOT A MODERN HOSPITAL) SHE ALSO WAS AWARE THAT SHE(MAYBE DUE TO AN ABSCENT FATHER/HUSBAND) COULDN'T GIVE ME A FULL LIFE(YET AS ANY GOOD YOUNG CATHOLIC SHE HAD ME,ANDPLACED ME FOR ADOPTION,I'M CERTAIN IF SHE'S ALIVE SHE WOULD STILL WONDER WHO OR WHAT i'D BECOME!!! I'M NOT CERTAIN WHEN 'OPEN ADOPTIONS BEGAN IN AMERICA,BUT IT WAS LATER THAN 1971, THOSE RECORDS ARE SEALED TIGHT! I'VE TRIED TO NO AVAIL TO CRACK THEM OPEN. SO IT WOULD COME TO BE THAT I WAS ADOPTED BY A 'GOD-FEARING' MISSOURI COUPLE(CAUCASIAN) WHO CAME FROM RURALMO. TO K,C. MET,marriedAND HAD A FEMALE CHILD TEN YEARS MY ELDER HER FIRST NAME IS PAMELA.they couldn't concieve again,and wanted a boy too(I'VE CHOSEN TO NOT REVEAL MY ADOPTED NAME, ESPECIALLY MY LAST NAME AS TO SHIELD MY FAMILY FROM CRITICISMS OF MY ACTIONS.PEOPLE WHEN DISTRESSED WITH ME HAVE SOMETIMES TRIED TO FIND THEM AND MAKE A FUSS INSTEAD OF TAKING IT DIIRECTLY TO ME. i FEEL IT'S A COWARDLY THING TO DO,BUT WELCOME TO OUR WORLD. WHEN I TURNED 18 THEY WERE NO LONGER RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS OR THOUGHTS.I'M CERTAIN MY MORE CONTROVERTIAL ACTIONS,AND THEORIES COME VIA nature not nurtureas my folks tried to raise me as a normal 'farm boy', who would maybe move to 'the city' (kansas city) get a job,meet a wife,and bARE grand-childeren! i couldn't have become much MOREdifferent than what i have a renegade free spirit, artistic thinker, with a psychedelic mentality and CARPE DIEM ATTITUDE TOWARDS LIFE! A STAR-GAZER&STAR-TRAVELLER WHO WANTS TO SET FOOT ON THE SPOT FURTHEST FROM HIS BIRTHPLACE AS POSSIBLE BEFORE MOVING ON FROM THIS LIFE.(SINCE THEMOON IS OUT, I'VE CALCULATED AN ISLAND S.E. OF SOUTH AFRICA, AND n.e. of antartica to be that place on EARTH!!! MORE ON THAT LATER.
WIVES&CHILDEREN: I'VE NEVER BEEN LEGALLY MARRIED OR MARRIED IN A CHURCH OF CHRIST.
YET WHILE i WAS WITH ONE OF MY EARLIEST 'LIFE LOVES MRS. MARIA CALMERE JOHNSON-LAWRENCE"CALLIE"(THE LAWRENCE COMES FROM HER CURRENT MARRIAGE TO COREY LAWRENCE, WHO I 'D MET PREVIOUSLY,BUT HE MET 'CALLIE' INDEPENDANTLY OF ME!!!)AN UNPLANNED PREGNANCY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BORE MY ONLY KNOWN RELATIVE'MYKAEL ANDROS JOHNSON HE GOES BY THE NAME XAK(ZACH) NOW, AND i THINK HE INDICATED A WILLINGNESS TO CHANGE HIS NAME TO XAK STRANGE-HE WAS BORN MAY12TH1991(17 THIS YEAR) i MISSED MOST HIS CHILDHOOD WHILE I WAS FINDING MYSELF IN SAN FRANCISCO,CA. FINDING MYSELF(LOOSING MYSELF IN SEX,DRUGS&ROCKNROLL, RE-ESTABLISHING MY BELIEFS,AND FINDING MYSELF AGAIN.~WHEW! WEARS ME OUT JUST THINKING ABOUT IT>GRIN< IN MANY WAYS I'M STILL FINDING MYSELFEVEN THOUGH MY PREVIOUS ADVENTURES MADE ME SEEM SUICIDAL,FOOLISH,AND WITHOUT DIRECTION.I FEEL STRONGLY THAT HIGHER POWERS HAVE MOVED THROUGH ME,AND WITH DISCIPLINE I'M TO UNLOCK THINGS THROUGH MY WRITINGS,MY HUGE AND POLY SYLLABIC FAITH,DIFFERENTIAL VIEWS ON SEXUAL IDENTITY,ADVANCED EXPRESSIONS OF THE ROLE OF HUMAN FREEDOMS&HOW MORALS INTERPLAY WITH THEM(I DIGRESS)
2ND 'WIFE'= MISS LUCINDA STRANGEGROTH: LUCI WAS BORN AND RAISED PAGAN, AND A SANFRANCISCAN,MAKING HER AN INTENSE PSYCHONAUT(ONE WHO EXPLORESTHIER OWN MINDSPACES) DUE TO MY INTERNAL SEARCH OF SELF, I TOO WAS A PSYCHONAUT,OUR MEETING WAS PARTLY THE UNDOING OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE EXTREMELY ARTISTICALLY TALENTED MISTRESS KATLEIAH VERIDIAN(I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK HER HEART.I STILL LOVE HER TO THIS DAY,BUT PATHS WERE DIVERGING) LUCI AND I APPLIED FOR OUR MATRIMONY CERTIFACATE IN S.F. IN ANTICIPATION OF THIS SHE REVEALED TO ME HER HESITANCE IN THE CHRISTIAN RIYUALS ANDEXPECTATIONS INVOLVED IN MARRIAGE. AT THE TIME MY NAME WAS ALEXANDRE STRANGE, AND HERS WAS LUCINDA GROTH USING THE LAWS OF SANFRANCISCO COUNTY WE BOTH CHANGED OUR NAMES TO STRANGEGROTH(NO HYPHENS ALLOWED PER NAME CHANGE RULES) DURING OUR MEDITAIONS ON CHANGING OUR NAMES, THE NAMEALEXAVIER CAME TO ME AS BEING A CLOSER REPRESENTATION OF MY SPIRITLUCI AGREED SO i CHANGED IT TOO, THENWE GATHEREDTARAEL OUR PRIEST, AND DEPARTED TO MISSOURI(TO VISIT MY FOLKS),AND OFF TO NEW MEXICO to hold our hand-festing ritual at the national rainbow family picnicour priest didn't make it back to s.f. so california sent us a message stating that we needed to return to CA.finish the legal aspect of the marriage orthey would annulit!- in our hysterically indifferent way we circled 'annul it' in red ink and mailed the letter back. I changed my name to STRANGERZ,BUT SHE IS STILL LUCINDA STRANGEGROTH,AND IN A WAY WE'LL ALWAYS BE CONNECTEDSHE'S CURRENTLY HELPING ME MOVE BACK TO THE SAN FRANCISCO BAY AREA,BUT WE SEE OTHERS! OUR RELATIONSHIP ON HER URGING WAS THE FIRST 'OPEN RELATIONSHIP I'D EVER ENTERED INTO.i'VE LOVED EVERY WOMAN/OR GIRL I'VE BEEN WITH,BUT SOME OF THEM WHERE ONLY POSSIBLE VIA THE GRACE OF MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER. AFTER LUCINDA, i PURSUED POLYAMOUROUS RELATIONS WITH ANNIELA LANGSTON-GREEN(STARTING IN K.C.AND MOVING TO OAKLAND,CA.),& MISS REBECCA astarte-PHILIPS(OAKLAND,CA.)in polyamoury you have a significant partnerm but with honest communication either can 'date outside the relationship, therefore experiencing great freedom in LOVE, WITHOUT GIVING UP THE STABILITY OF A DEDICATED PARTNER(IT'S TRICKY REQUIRES LOTS OF COMMUNICATION&HONESTY, AND IS NOT JUST ABOUT THE POTENTIAL SEX REALLY,THAT CAN BE A BONUS,BUT LOVE IS THE REAL REWARD ESPECIALLY WHEN ALLOWED TO BE LOVED&CARED FORBY MANY WITHOUT JUDGEMENT(i FEEL THIS SUBCONSCIOUSLY IS A REFLECTION OF BEING TAKEN FROM MY ONE MOM,AND CARED FOR BY MANY FEMALE NURSES AT THE ORPHANAGE EQUALLY) REINFORCED BY MY RELATIONS WITH ANNIELA,LUCINDA,AND REBECCA! SO CAN i HONESTLY EVER BE MONOGAMOUS.a PART OF ME WOULD LIKE TO SAY 'IT'S POSSIBLE VIA LOVE,YET i STILL HAVE MY DOUBTS ABOUT HUMAN NATURE. WOMEN CHEAT AS MUCH AS MEN(YET USUALLY FOR DIFFERENT REASONS>DUCKINGTHE REPRICUSSIONS OF THAT STATEMENT< I FINISH THIS POST WITH THIS;
IN ORDER TO PRESERVE MY GOOD WORD,AND STAY TRUE TO IT...
I DON'T MAKE PROMISES LIGHTLY,AND WHEN I DO. I PREFER NOT TO HAVE THOSE PROMISES&TRUSTSABUSED! TRUST IS TO A RELATIONSHIP AS WATER IS TO A PLANT-A NECCESSARY COMPONENT IN IT'S HEALTH AND GROWTH!
O.K. /ALEXAVIER A HREF="mailto:ALEXAVIER@GMAIL.COM.com">FEEL FREE TO E-MAIL ME DIRECT/A
lj-cut> I WAS BORN ON AUGUST FIRST -1971(37 YRS OLD) TO A 14 YR OLD LATINA IMMAGRANT*FROM SOUTHERN OR MID MEXICO,MAYAN COUNTRY I DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT HER OR MY BIOLOGICALFATHER(HE WAS MOST LIKELY MUCH OLDER THAN HER,AND HAS BEEN SAID TO HAVE BEEN FROM EASTERN EUTOPEAN DECENT,MAYBY EVEN A GYPSY!IDON'T KNOW WHAT NAME IWAS CHRISTENED WITH AT THIS TIME.ONE THING IS CERTAIN FOR SOME REASON THEY WERE NOT REALLY READY TO RAISE A CHILD.I WAS THEN HANDED OVER TO CATHOLIC CHARITIES(THIS TIME PERIOD OF BEING AN ORPHAN LASTING AT LEAST A FEW MONTHS)I CONSCIOUSLY HOLD NO ILL AGAINST MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS FOR THIS(C'EST LE VIE N'EST PAS?)
THERE IS NO LISTED HOSPITAL ON MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE MANY THEORIES OR LINES OF THINKING CAN MAKE THAT FACT MORE IMPORTANT THAN WHAT IT PROBABLY IS.MY OWN RESEARCH INDICATES THAT WOMEN IN SO. AND CENTRAL MEXICO DURING THE TIME OF MY CONCEPTION ,AND BIRTH OFTEN HAD,AND EXPECTED TO HAVE 'WATER-BIRTHS W/MIDWIVES. EVEN THOUGH i WAS BORN IN SO.KANSAS CITY MO. U.S.A. I'M CERTAIN MI MADRE WOULD GO WITH WHAT SHE KNEW(HAVING ME AT HOME,NOT A MODERN HOSPITAL) SHE ALSO WAS AWARE THAT SHE(MAYBE DUE TO AN ABSCENT FATHER/HUSBAND) COULDN'T GIVE ME A FULL LIFE(YET AS ANY GOOD YOUNG CATHOLIC SHE HAD ME,ANDPLACED ME FOR ADOPTION,I'M CERTAIN IF SHE'S ALIVE SHE WOULD STILL WONDER WHO OR WHAT i'D BECOME!!! I'M NOT CERTAIN WHEN 'OPEN ADOPTIONS BEGAN IN AMERICA,BUT IT WAS LATER THAN 1971, THOSE RECORDS ARE SEALED TIGHT! I'VE TRIED TO NO AVAIL TO CRACK THEM OPEN. SO IT WOULD COME TO BE THAT I WAS ADOPTED BY A 'GOD-FEARING' MISSOURI COUPLE(CAUCASIAN) WHO CAME FROM RURALMO. TO K,C. MET,marriedAND HAD A FEMALE CHILD TEN YEARS MY ELDER HER FIRST NAME IS PAMELA.they couldn't concieve again,and wanted a boy too(I'VE CHOSEN TO NOT REVEAL MY ADOPTED NAME, ESPECIALLY MY LAST NAME AS TO SHIELD MY FAMILY FROM CRITICISMS OF MY ACTIONS.PEOPLE WHEN DISTRESSED WITH ME HAVE SOMETIMES TRIED TO FIND THEM AND MAKE A FUSS INSTEAD OF TAKING IT DIIRECTLY TO ME. i FEEL IT'S A COWARDLY THING TO DO,BUT WELCOME TO OUR WORLD. WHEN I TURNED 18 THEY WERE NO LONGER RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS OR THOUGHTS.I'M CERTAIN MY MORE CONTROVERTIAL ACTIONS,AND THEORIES COME VIA nature not nurtureas my folks tried to raise me as a normal 'farm boy', who would maybe move to 'the city' (kansas city) get a job,meet a wife,and bARE grand-childeren! i couldn't have become much MOREdifferent than what i have a renegade free spirit, artistic thinker, with a psychedelic mentality and CARPE DIEM ATTITUDE TOWARDS LIFE! A STAR-GAZER&STAR-TRAVELLER WHO WANTS TO SET FOOT ON THE SPOT FURTHEST FROM HIS BIRTHPLACE AS POSSIBLE BEFORE MOVING ON FROM THIS LIFE.(SINCE THEMOON IS OUT, I'VE CALCULATED AN ISLAND S.E. OF SOUTH AFRICA, AND n.e. of antartica to be that place on EARTH!!! MORE ON THAT LATER.
WIVES&CHILDEREN: I'VE NEVER BEEN LEGALLY MARRIED OR MARRIED IN A CHURCH OF CHRIST.
YET WHILE i WAS WITH ONE OF MY EARLIEST 'LIFE LOVES MRS. MARIA CALMERE JOHNSON-LAWRENCE"CALLIE"(THE LAWRENCE COMES FROM HER CURRENT MARRIAGE TO COREY LAWRENCE, WHO I 'D MET PREVIOUSLY,BUT HE MET 'CALLIE' INDEPENDANTLY OF ME!!!)AN UNPLANNED PREGNANCY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BORE MY ONLY KNOWN RELATIVE'MYKAEL ANDROS JOHNSON HE GOES BY THE NAME XAK(ZACH) NOW, AND i THINK HE INDICATED A WILLINGNESS TO CHANGE HIS NAME TO XAK STRANGE-HE WAS BORN MAY12TH1991(17 THIS YEAR) i MISSED MOST HIS CHILDHOOD WHILE I WAS FINDING MYSELF IN SAN FRANCISCO,CA. FINDING MYSELF(LOOSING MYSELF IN SEX,DRUGS&ROCKNROLL, RE-ESTABLISHING MY BELIEFS,AND FINDING MYSELF AGAIN.~WHEW! WEARS ME OUT JUST THINKING ABOUT IT>GRIN< IN MANY WAYS I'M STILL FINDING MYSELFEVEN THOUGH MY PREVIOUS ADVENTURES MADE ME SEEM SUICIDAL,FOOLISH,AND WITHOUT DIRECTION.I FEEL STRONGLY THAT HIGHER POWERS HAVE MOVED THROUGH ME,AND WITH DISCIPLINE I'M TO UNLOCK THINGS THROUGH MY WRITINGS,MY HUGE AND POLY SYLLABIC FAITH,DIFFERENTIAL VIEWS ON SEXUAL IDENTITY,ADVANCED EXPRESSIONS OF THE ROLE OF HUMAN FREEDOMS&HOW MORALS INTERPLAY WITH THEM(I DIGRESS)
2ND 'WIFE'= MISS LUCINDA STRANGEGROTH: LUCI WAS BORN AND RAISED PAGAN, AND A SANFRANCISCAN,MAKING HER AN INTENSE PSYCHONAUT(ONE WHO EXPLORESTHIER OWN MINDSPACES) DUE TO MY INTERNAL SEARCH OF SELF, I TOO WAS A PSYCHONAUT,OUR MEETING WAS PARTLY THE UNDOING OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE EXTREMELY ARTISTICALLY TALENTED MISTRESS KATLEIAH VERIDIAN(I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK HER HEART.I STILL LOVE HER TO THIS DAY,BUT PATHS WERE DIVERGING) LUCI AND I APPLIED FOR OUR MATRIMONY CERTIFACATE IN S.F. IN ANTICIPATION OF THIS SHE REVEALED TO ME HER HESITANCE IN THE CHRISTIAN RIYUALS ANDEXPECTATIONS INVOLVED IN MARRIAGE. AT THE TIME MY NAME WAS ALEXANDRE STRANGE, AND HERS WAS LUCINDA GROTH USING THE LAWS OF SANFRANCISCO COUNTY WE BOTH CHANGED OUR NAMES TO STRANGEGROTH(NO HYPHENS ALLOWED PER NAME CHANGE RULES) DURING OUR MEDITAIONS ON CHANGING OUR NAMES, THE NAMEALEXAVIER CAME TO ME AS BEING A CLOSER REPRESENTATION OF MY SPIRITLUCI AGREED SO i CHANGED IT TOO, THENWE GATHEREDTARAEL OUR PRIEST, AND DEPARTED TO MISSOURI(TO VISIT MY FOLKS),AND OFF TO NEW MEXICO to hold our hand-festing ritual at the national rainbow family picnicour priest didn't make it back to s.f. so california sent us a message stating that we needed to return to CA.finish the legal aspect of the marriage orthey would annulit!- in our hysterically indifferent way we circled 'annul it' in red ink and mailed the letter back. I changed my name to STRANGERZ,BUT SHE IS STILL LUCINDA STRANGEGROTH,AND IN A WAY WE'LL ALWAYS BE CONNECTEDSHE'S CURRENTLY HELPING ME MOVE BACK TO THE SAN FRANCISCO BAY AREA,BUT WE SEE OTHERS! OUR RELATIONSHIP ON HER URGING WAS THE FIRST 'OPEN RELATIONSHIP I'D EVER ENTERED INTO.i'VE LOVED EVERY WOMAN/OR GIRL I'VE BEEN WITH,BUT SOME OF THEM WHERE ONLY POSSIBLE VIA THE GRACE OF MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER. AFTER LUCINDA, i PURSUED POLYAMOUROUS RELATIONS WITH ANNIELA LANGSTON-GREEN(STARTING IN K.C.AND MOVING TO OAKLAND,CA.),& MISS REBECCA astarte-PHILIPS(OAKLAND,CA.)in polyamoury you have a significant partnerm but with honest communication either can 'date outside the relationship, therefore experiencing great freedom in LOVE, WITHOUT GIVING UP THE STABILITY OF A DEDICATED PARTNER(IT'S TRICKY REQUIRES LOTS OF COMMUNICATION&HONESTY, AND IS NOT JUST ABOUT THE POTENTIAL SEX REALLY,THAT CAN BE A BONUS,BUT LOVE IS THE REAL REWARD ESPECIALLY WHEN ALLOWED TO BE LOVED&CARED FORBY MANY WITHOUT JUDGEMENT(i FEEL THIS SUBCONSCIOUSLY IS A REFLECTION OF BEING TAKEN FROM MY ONE MOM,AND CARED FOR BY MANY FEMALE NURSES AT THE ORPHANAGE EQUALLY) REINFORCED BY MY RELATIONS WITH ANNIELA,LUCINDA,AND REBECCA! SO CAN i HONESTLY EVER BE MONOGAMOUS.a PART OF ME WOULD LIKE TO SAY 'IT'S POSSIBLE VIA LOVE,YET i STILL HAVE MY DOUBTS ABOUT HUMAN NATURE. WOMEN CHEAT AS MUCH AS MEN(YET USUALLY FOR DIFFERENT REASONS>DUCKINGTHE REPRICUSSIONS OF THAT STATEMENT< I FINISH THIS POST WITH THIS;
IN ORDER TO PRESERVE MY GOOD WORD,AND STAY TRUE TO IT...
I DON'T MAKE PROMISES LIGHTLY,AND WHEN I DO. I PREFER NOT TO HAVE THOSE PROMISES&TRUSTSABUSED! TRUST IS TO A RELATIONSHIP AS WATER IS TO A PLANT-A NECCESSARY COMPONENT IN IT'S HEALTH AND GROWTH!
O.K. /ALEXAVIER A HREF="mailto:ALEXAVIER@GMAIL.COM.com">FEEL FREE TO E-MAIL ME DIRECT/A