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Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
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I never thought I would really have to post this song in my livejournal and feel every emotion it expresses. I love you and I know you love me too. Maybe we're better apart? But then again, maybe we're better together. Whether you want this or not, I felt it coming. I don't have the energy to write everything I feel write now. I physically cannot do it. I'm sorry I'm not everything you want. I'm sorry I can't be all that you need. I just wish love was enough...if it was we'd be completely perfect. Unfortunately though it isn't, and I don't know if I can fill those gaps that love doesn't fill either. I know I said things and I want to do them, but I want them to be addition things, not priorties in our relationship. Please be happy...there isn't anything I want more than your completely and total happiness. You're my best friend, my love, my everything. These feelings are rushing through me and it is almost overwhelming. All of this is inevitable though. Whatever happens, happens. If we don't work things out, know that I love you; I always have and I always will. If we do things work out, let's learn from this. I didn't want this to end. I didn't want this break. I don't want us apart. I don't know what else to do though. I don't know how all of this will turn out...and I hate not knowing. :[ I love you so much.
sorry if this is confusion. 3am and writting doesn't mix well with me