Re: D&D
I'm not actually "up" yet today... I'm only awake at this moment because there were some birds messing around on the roof directly over where I sleep. But I've got something on my mind that I want to put up now so that it doesn't catch people by surprise.
I'm not enjoying the D&D campaign any more. The first adventure went fairly well and I had a great time running it. The second one kind of went off in unexpected directions in the first session and since then there has been drama between a couple of different groups of players, involving people I care about a lot... not the people whose real life identities I can barely keep separate. This is the kind of thing that eats my brain, and every time I turn my attention to the subject of the campaign I end up trying to figure out how to minimize or avoid it or resolve it without hurt feelings or kicking people out of the game that I'd really like to keep playing with, under better circumstances.
And this is especially bad since, as I mentioned, the second adventure jumped the rails in a couple of big ways in the first session. That's not usually a problem as I'm pretty good about improvising, but when I have to be making up stuff and my mind's worrying itself around in circles, it just doesn't work.
I had been determined to get through the end of the second adventure and try a fresh start with the third one, but my first thought when I was woken up by bird noise and a freaked out cat on my feet was "Oh dear God, tonight is D&D night". That's not the first time I've had that thought, but this week... my actual paying work that pays my bills has been going so well. Yesterday was a bad brain day. Today should be a productive one. It won't be if I keep this looming over me.
So no game tonight. The campaign isn't canceled... I feel like it's past the point of salvaging for me at this point, but I often have the experience that when I am sure something is past the point of salvation and I determine to put it aside, I'm filled with renewed inspiration. Let's say it's "on the bubble", as they say of network shows. If after a week or two... meh, let's be firm and say two weeks. Two week hiatus and if I still feel this way in two weeks... well, then it's safe to say it's not coming back. But if things come around to the point that I feel like I can continue, then by that point my new writing regimen should be well-established and I should be able to "write around" any problems.
Comments are off because I seriously don't feel like talking about it. Please respect that.
I'm not enjoying the D&D campaign any more. The first adventure went fairly well and I had a great time running it. The second one kind of went off in unexpected directions in the first session and since then there has been drama between a couple of different groups of players, involving people I care about a lot... not the people whose real life identities I can barely keep separate. This is the kind of thing that eats my brain, and every time I turn my attention to the subject of the campaign I end up trying to figure out how to minimize or avoid it or resolve it without hurt feelings or kicking people out of the game that I'd really like to keep playing with, under better circumstances.
And this is especially bad since, as I mentioned, the second adventure jumped the rails in a couple of big ways in the first session. That's not usually a problem as I'm pretty good about improvising, but when I have to be making up stuff and my mind's worrying itself around in circles, it just doesn't work.
I had been determined to get through the end of the second adventure and try a fresh start with the third one, but my first thought when I was woken up by bird noise and a freaked out cat on my feet was "Oh dear God, tonight is D&D night". That's not the first time I've had that thought, but this week... my actual paying work that pays my bills has been going so well. Yesterday was a bad brain day. Today should be a productive one. It won't be if I keep this looming over me.
So no game tonight. The campaign isn't canceled... I feel like it's past the point of salvaging for me at this point, but I often have the experience that when I am sure something is past the point of salvation and I determine to put it aside, I'm filled with renewed inspiration. Let's say it's "on the bubble", as they say of network shows. If after a week or two... meh, let's be firm and say two weeks. Two week hiatus and if I still feel this way in two weeks... well, then it's safe to say it's not coming back. But if things come around to the point that I feel like I can continue, then by that point my new writing regimen should be well-established and I should be able to "write around" any problems.
Comments are off because I seriously don't feel like talking about it. Please respect that.