Let Me Entertain You

Nov 11, 2010 10:06

One of the things I've realized in my life-hacking and ongoing self-improvement project is that I'm an entertainer. That's the talent that's given to me... being a crusader or educator is outside my skill set. Some educating or crusading might happen in the course of my entertainment, but when I lose sight of what I'm doing the result is me being flustered, frustrated, and floundering. That latter part is why there have been more posts about writing and roleplaying than more "serious business" in my Livejournal lately... I've felt like I couldn't handle that sort of discussion at the level I wanted to, which left me feeling sort of inadequate.

But nobody is equipped to do everything, and I'm equipped to do a few things pretty darn well. That's not inadequacy. It's specialization.

And that realization is part of why I've been having a bit of a quiet renaissance in my work after a period of... well, sort of circling the drain, to be honest. I had a lot of mini-epiphanies along the way, a lot of attempts to revitalize that only succeeded insofar as they helped keep things moving at all.

Yesterday was a kind of weird day for me, so there wasn't a lot of new stuff going up. I have another rule to add to my life: don't do website work on a day you intend to write. I was all excited about giving Fantasy In Miniature a makeover a la MU, but afterwards it took me like two hours to write the 700ish word story I put up on it and then I stalled out on doing anything else until well into the evening, when Circumstances sort of took over. I guess I should learn the lesson that during the years when I was engaged in technical, computer-oriented work I did very little creatively, and since I've spent years focusing on my Art my computer skills have degraded quite a bit. My brain's just not big enough to hold both of those things in active memory.

On the other hand, when I gave my Saturday over to the MU site, I was able to whoop out a story on Sunday and Monday. So that's the way to go.

Anyway, it's a new day and I need to put some food in the word-tank and then I'll have some nice things for you to read.

like art alexakis without the alexakis, that's entertainment, works in progress, life lessons, writing about writing

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