1 day to go...
So I wasn't gonna come to school today. I was just gonna chill at home. But my mom said something and made me feel even guiliter than I was feeling in the first place about not going, so here I am. Blah. Shoulda stayed home. Had a cup of coffee, and I can't tell if I'm dizzy or just groggy. Probably a combination of both. The grogginess is turning into sleepiness and is not fun. I think if I drink any more coffee I'll puke.
So yeah, after today is over, only one more day of classes... then *dum dum duuummm....* finals. Haven't started studying. Don't know what's gonnna be on two out of three of them. I need to get my act together. Finals are evil. Whoever made them up must be burning in hell. Still, not a bad enough punishment for doing what they did. LOL
Ack, I keep thinking today is Friday. I wish it was! Tomorrow is only Thursday... which means I have work. I hate hate hate my job. Fucking HATE it. I would do anything to get another job so I could quit the hellhole I'm at right now. Okay... so I do what I'm supposed to do everyday. I get finished. So I ask the secretary what else there is for me to do. Hello-- I'm a student worker. I just do little odd jobs people need me to do. So anyway-- my so-called "boss" gets pissed at me for asking the secretary what there is for me to do. Yet she also gets pissed when I just sit there. So I'm supposed to just find things to do on my own. But here we go again-- there is nothing left to do. I have already done everything. What the fuck? Like, seriously. I am so miserable. If I didn't have bills to pay, I swear to God, I would have quit about 2 or 3 weeks ago, because I just cannot stand it over there. The people treat me like shit and like I'm a slave, I swear. Doing the crap I have to do and putting up with the ridiculous shit I have to put up with was not in the job description when I applied for the job. I wish more than anything that I could get my job at the grocery store back. Very complicated situation, too much to type out and explain, but just know that it's complicated, I'm painfully shy sometimes, and I do not want to go back and grovel and beg for my job that I probably won't get back because I did something stupid last time I got rehired--like quit after one day. I was stressed out, was working two jobs, in the sorority, and my grandmother got put in the hospital with the doctors saying she could die any minute. Things were not going too well in the life department, and I couldn't handle it, so I quit on the spot. Stupid stupid stupid, I know, but when life throws you curve balls... what can I say? Maybe if I just explain myself, they'll give me one more chance...one can only hope. I could leave here and go talk to the manager now, but I'd lose my good parking spot. LOL Maybe it's worth it... I think I may go... If I don't go now I never will. *deep breath* Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!