It's ranting time.....
first off, i need to rant about the parking sticker situation:
Mr. Mancini just decided to put stickers on our cars without asking us! then, when i asked him why, he said, "Didn't you get the memo? It's a new rule." WTF?! no one i've talked to has heard about this rule! i don't want a sticker on my car! it's ugly and hard to get off! so, i did what every angry student should do: i took off the sticker, stuck it to an index card, and taped it to the inside back window of my car. it actually came off quite nicely.
next, i need to rant about....Alisha:
NOTE: NO FEELINGS ARE INTENDED TO BE HURT. I AM RANTING; REMEMBER THAT.
okay, Alisha and i were talking about the dinner situation for homecoming at my locker yesterday afterschool. i mentioned to her that she needed to get on the ball with Matt 'cause he was planning a cookout with his friends. again, she warned me not to talk to him (and again, no reason was given). i said that i didn't talk to him, but i overheard him talking to Brenton during Anatomy. all of the sudden, i feel this great slam onto my back and all of the air is knocked out of me. a couple seconds later, i yelled, "OW!" and asked what did i do. Alisha told me to shut up. confused, i asked why, that i didn't say anything, that i wasn't talking to Matt. again, she yelled at me to shut up. now, i'm more angry than confused and i asked why again. she yet again said shut up, God, and then walked away. it wasn't until today at lunch that i discovered that Matt was behind me while i was talking to her. i told her that i was sorry, but if she would've told me why i should've shut up, i would've. then, she quietly tells Josh the story again, i tell him that i didn't know that he was behind me, and Alisha shouts, "Shut up! God! You're SO annoying!" that stopped me in my tracks. it took everything i had not to cry. i honestly thought that i was gonna burst out in tears during 5th period.
then, it got me thinking: am i really that annoying? i know i'm loud sometimes (well, most of the time), and i interject when i shouldn't sometimes, but am i really annoying? when i really thought about it, i got deep in thought. Maybe none of my friends like me. Maybe I should just leave. What's holding me back? I mean, I do everything for them, and what do I get in return except attention? I move when they ask me to so they don't have to sit on the end, even though I don't like sitting on the end anymore than they do. If they whine and complain about doing something, I do it instead. I'm so guillible, and they use it to their advantage. Yet, when I whine or complain or don't want to sit on the end, they shun me and don't talk to me and call me names....
am i right to think this? or am i just having a bad day?
i want honest opinions. no "OMG! I'm sooooo sorry! *hugs*". i want comfort, but i want improvement more.
adios
Mr. Mancini just decided to put stickers on our cars without asking us! then, when i asked him why, he said, "Didn't you get the memo? It's a new rule." WTF?! no one i've talked to has heard about this rule! i don't want a sticker on my car! it's ugly and hard to get off! so, i did what every angry student should do: i took off the sticker, stuck it to an index card, and taped it to the inside back window of my car. it actually came off quite nicely.
next, i need to rant about....Alisha:
NOTE: NO FEELINGS ARE INTENDED TO BE HURT. I AM RANTING; REMEMBER THAT.
okay, Alisha and i were talking about the dinner situation for homecoming at my locker yesterday afterschool. i mentioned to her that she needed to get on the ball with Matt 'cause he was planning a cookout with his friends. again, she warned me not to talk to him (and again, no reason was given). i said that i didn't talk to him, but i overheard him talking to Brenton during Anatomy. all of the sudden, i feel this great slam onto my back and all of the air is knocked out of me. a couple seconds later, i yelled, "OW!" and asked what did i do. Alisha told me to shut up. confused, i asked why, that i didn't say anything, that i wasn't talking to Matt. again, she yelled at me to shut up. now, i'm more angry than confused and i asked why again. she yet again said shut up, God, and then walked away. it wasn't until today at lunch that i discovered that Matt was behind me while i was talking to her. i told her that i was sorry, but if she would've told me why i should've shut up, i would've. then, she quietly tells Josh the story again, i tell him that i didn't know that he was behind me, and Alisha shouts, "Shut up! God! You're SO annoying!" that stopped me in my tracks. it took everything i had not to cry. i honestly thought that i was gonna burst out in tears during 5th period.
then, it got me thinking: am i really that annoying? i know i'm loud sometimes (well, most of the time), and i interject when i shouldn't sometimes, but am i really annoying? when i really thought about it, i got deep in thought. Maybe none of my friends like me. Maybe I should just leave. What's holding me back? I mean, I do everything for them, and what do I get in return except attention? I move when they ask me to so they don't have to sit on the end, even though I don't like sitting on the end anymore than they do. If they whine and complain about doing something, I do it instead. I'm so guillible, and they use it to their advantage. Yet, when I whine or complain or don't want to sit on the end, they shun me and don't talk to me and call me names....
am i right to think this? or am i just having a bad day?
i want honest opinions. no "OMG! I'm sooooo sorry! *hugs*". i want comfort, but i want improvement more.
adios