nobody will, cuz only one hand will work

[alex_thebigone]

i just looked at my last few posts and realized how many of them were awful posts
full of emptiness
too much feeling
i see what other people post and realize
nobody wants to hear me complain about how i feel
most people just tell their life as it is

so I will

Brigadoon is at 7:30 at the shoreline community college theatre on thursday, friday, and saturday this week
saturday is closing
you can come if u want but i'll be in the back most of the time
at least that's what my parents said about last saturday's performance
it'd be worth it to see some of the amazing people in the principle roles
today we have a pick up rehearsal
that's a big part of my life right now

i've skipped loads of promusica and i don't give a fuck

this weekend i fucked up my foot again
but today it got better
i'm going back to school this morning

my cousin is flying of the rail and losing his marbles
more and more pot
more and more drink
on saturday night he was unintelligable, calling his ex until three in the morning
i stayed up with him, cuz after my mom yelled at him he started saying things that scared me
you can't leave someone alone like that
and he just hasn't stopped smoking more and more pot
he's never not under an influence, never himself anymore
and the entire house reeked of it this morning
my mom is gone so he doesn't have to worry

so now back to school
back to where i probly lost a solo for not going yesterday
fun