Humanity
Somewhere in 2017 I lost my faith in humanity as a whole. That isn't to say I don't still have hope that there is enough good to keep things in a state of forward momentum, but I feel that people(myself very much included) are too selfish to understand each other for more than a brief period of time.
I'm much more direct with people these days, to the extent that people could call me callous. As an emotional person myself it seems unfair that I would respond with brutal honesty that could possibly really hurt someone. But in a world full of insecurity I'd rather know where I stand with people, so I make sure to be direct.
Maybe my feelings were hurt a few too many times. Maybe this is what it's like to be almost 30. Maybe I'm poor and fed up with working so hard and caring, it's hard, I'm exhausted. I carry resent like my stomach feels after a pint of ice cream, sour.
It makes me feel like a bad person, but it feels necessary.
I'm much more direct with people these days, to the extent that people could call me callous. As an emotional person myself it seems unfair that I would respond with brutal honesty that could possibly really hurt someone. But in a world full of insecurity I'd rather know where I stand with people, so I make sure to be direct.
Maybe my feelings were hurt a few too many times. Maybe this is what it's like to be almost 30. Maybe I'm poor and fed up with working so hard and caring, it's hard, I'm exhausted. I carry resent like my stomach feels after a pint of ice cream, sour.
It makes me feel like a bad person, but it feels necessary.