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long day at work it was.
wasnt an awesome day for me but im relaxed right now.
and now ive been thinking.. well i have been thinking for a while.
im sorry ive hurt you some.
i dont mean to hurt you of course..
i do understand why your so scared. i really do.
and i wish you could trust me with me talking to her, and once again i see why your so scared.
i dono im a little confused right now...
this situation doesnt seem like a big deal but when i hear you cry like that for so long it hurts me and it tells me, you really do care for me, and that it IS a big deal to you, and i kinda wonder, how you care for me like you do.
i mean, my whole life, ive never had people care a lot about me.
i grew up with i guess what youd call, pretty people?
my friends always had a gf, telling me about how they madeout with a girl or did stuff with thier girlfriend, heh... and i got my first kiss when i was in 9th or 10th grade? yeha i think 9th. (thank god they told me i was a great kisser.. gave me some confidence)
but yeah not being noticed or cared about for so long and i finally have people wanting me or caring about me so much means a lot to me. maybe thats why it sux whenever i get in a serious relationship and the point comes to where it ends.. im not good with those endings.
anyways, ive been questioning something lately.. i truly understand why you dont want me to even talk to this girl(even on the internet)
but then something tells me, i have nothing to worry about, cuz id never cheat on a girl or you, nor hurt you....
... im telling you, your not gonna lose me to her.
well im positive you wotn change your mind about any of this.
i dono, i dont know what to say anymore.
im just gonna go to sleep right now and forget about it...
i love you
and i miss you..
and please get better.
i cant stand much longer without seeing you.
wasnt an awesome day for me but im relaxed right now.
and now ive been thinking.. well i have been thinking for a while.
im sorry ive hurt you some.
i dont mean to hurt you of course..
i do understand why your so scared. i really do.
and i wish you could trust me with me talking to her, and once again i see why your so scared.
i dono im a little confused right now...
this situation doesnt seem like a big deal but when i hear you cry like that for so long it hurts me and it tells me, you really do care for me, and that it IS a big deal to you, and i kinda wonder, how you care for me like you do.
i mean, my whole life, ive never had people care a lot about me.
i grew up with i guess what youd call, pretty people?
my friends always had a gf, telling me about how they madeout with a girl or did stuff with thier girlfriend, heh... and i got my first kiss when i was in 9th or 10th grade? yeha i think 9th. (thank god they told me i was a great kisser.. gave me some confidence)
but yeah not being noticed or cared about for so long and i finally have people wanting me or caring about me so much means a lot to me. maybe thats why it sux whenever i get in a serious relationship and the point comes to where it ends.. im not good with those endings.
anyways, ive been questioning something lately.. i truly understand why you dont want me to even talk to this girl(even on the internet)
but then something tells me, i have nothing to worry about, cuz id never cheat on a girl or you, nor hurt you....
... im telling you, your not gonna lose me to her.
well im positive you wotn change your mind about any of this.
i dono, i dont know what to say anymore.
im just gonna go to sleep right now and forget about it...
i love you
and i miss you..
and please get better.
i cant stand much longer without seeing you.