Because the stupid sight deleted all I wrote earlier Here's what I was saying.
Livejournal, you aren't forgiven. I'm not giving you a birthday present now you. ALL THE COOKIES! THE LOVE CARDS! ALL THOSE NIGHTS WE SPENT STARING AT THE STARS! THEY MEANT NOTHING TO YOU DIDN'T THEY!? YOU BASTARD!....lol...we're through.
j/p
=)P
We're cool.
Reflections-
I'm gonna hafta summarize this for you;
I find that a lot of people have a hard time being positive. Well, it's hard to be positive in difficult situations, it's a lot easier to be negative, but living life negatively can lead to...wanting to give up to, to just stop trying and cry your blood through your eyes with silent moans of pain until air will never again grace the paths to your lungs, until a last breath has the chance to escape your body. Super-bowl sunday. Those who know what I'm talking about you know what I mean when I say that. I remember everything was just negative. Everything in life was wrong, I was wrong, or so I thought. It scares me to ever know I was like that, to know I'm capable of such thoughts and actions. To hurt myself and hurt others, being aggresive like that was scary. I'm so glad I had people to talk to about it before I went insane and ended up dumping myself into a horrible depression. That's why you have to look at each situation as something new learned, always look on the bright side. That's why I say,
"The glass is always half-full."
I know how easy it is to give up and how difficult it is to pull yourself out of what seems like an eternal long depression, but all that struggling to be happy is all worth it and if you do it right, you actually get a lot happier doing it.
Sometimes, you have to look at the bigger picture, if you focus on all the details you'll go insane, because there's too many to cover. I find without examining the details once I can usual place my wisdom correctly. That doesn't mean you have to live a simple life, but stop concentrating so hard on the little things and look at the bigger things.
I'm willing to fight off my demons because I know I love. I know I love and that as long as I do there's something worth fighting for, just knowing I'm capable of love even if it's to myself alone.
I love
I love
I love
I love
or trying screaming
Me
over and over. It feels good to be selfish at times, sometimes it's better to just stop giving a shit and focus more on yourself (I learned this lesson too after being the shoulder and ear for every girl who was screwed over because she decided to listen to her ripe heart swelling blindly with love instead of common sense. Yeah sweetheart, you don't always have to follow your heart, sometimes it can get you fucked over). If you wash your hands, technically whatever happens to your friends isn't your fault. If you take it or not as that is up to you.
Everything you do is by your own decision, we are all capable of stopping something before it starts, all capable of walking away. But that doesn't mean we do. Grab life by the horns and get to manipulatin'. <3
But you don't have to listen to me, go get your ass out there and make your own tracks!
Wishful thinking-
I wish I could have everything I want sometimes, but then again I don't. If I had everything I could ever want, then what would I dream of having? An average man can dream of a million things he wants every night and be good with achieving dreams for the rest of his life, while a rich man will have one dream that he will never reach, because he already has everything else or can get it easily. I am satisfied with my state, I like having something to look forward to, I like having something I need to save money for, something to wait for. As long as I have something to work for and friends to hold I couldn't be happier. =)
You sexy devils <3
I'm gonna get back into dancing.
(Like it or not ~ Madonna)
Love
Alex-Li
You can call me a sinner
Or you can call me a saint
Celebrate me for who I am
Dislike me for what I ain't
Put me up on a pedestal
Or drag me down in the dirt
Sticks and stones will break my bones
But your names will never hurt
I'll be the garden, you'll be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because
This is who I am
You can like it or not
You can love me or leave me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop
No no
Cleopatra had her way
Matahari too
Whether they were good or bad
Is strictly up to you
Life is a paradox
And it doesn't make much sense
Can't have the "femme" without the "fatale"
Please don't take offense
Don't let the fruit rot under the vine
Fill up your cup and let's drink the wine
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because
This is who I am
You can like it or not
You can love me or leave me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop
No no
You know
No no, you know
(repeat 3 times)
I'll be the garden, you'll be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because
This is who I am
You can like it or not
You can love me or leave me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop
No no
You know
It's my song for today
Let's party <3