smoking cigarettes and sinking deeper into doubt
I haven’t updated in ages,
The only reason that im doing it
Now is because im at work and
there is nothing to do,
don’t read this, if I were you I wouldn’t,
as of late I have been working full time,
going in at seven, leaving by three,
going home, reading, watching tv,
occasionally going out for coffee,
or hanging out with mikey after school.
The thing is, I really feel lost in the routine
Of my existence. I just feel too programmed or
Artificial, like a taxidermal exhibit of human life.
I feel like something is missing,
I tried my luck with lusty relationships,
But they always seem to make me feel worse in the morning,
Im sick of being judgmental, apathetic..
and always projecting Into the future,
I cant seem to stand most people these days,
It feels like a necessity to get intoxicated on the weekends,
Just so I can change my mood,
I got my hair cut and dyed the other night,
I would post pictures but that would only
Further my vain disposition.
xxo
The only reason that im doing it
Now is because im at work and
there is nothing to do,
don’t read this, if I were you I wouldn’t,
as of late I have been working full time,
going in at seven, leaving by three,
going home, reading, watching tv,
occasionally going out for coffee,
or hanging out with mikey after school.
The thing is, I really feel lost in the routine
Of my existence. I just feel too programmed or
Artificial, like a taxidermal exhibit of human life.
I feel like something is missing,
I tried my luck with lusty relationships,
But they always seem to make me feel worse in the morning,
Im sick of being judgmental, apathetic..
and always projecting Into the future,
I cant seem to stand most people these days,
It feels like a necessity to get intoxicated on the weekends,
Just so I can change my mood,
I got my hair cut and dyed the other night,
I would post pictures but that would only
Further my vain disposition.
xxo