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So after nearly 30 yrs of doing things my way and just bitching all of the time, I have started taking amphetamines-- for the immediate purpose of writing term papers but possibly out of the weeds and into the rest of my life as desired. After several months of abusing my body with alcohol and Red Bull, I feel pretty okay about it; only I do feel residual superstitions about, you know, mucking around up there in the brain area with something potent enough to require a prescription.
I want to write about it both to invite anyone's input and to self-monitor for any of the psychological side effects listed on Wikipedia: euphoria, anxiety, increased libido, alertness, concentration, energy, self-esteem, self-confidence, sociability, irritability, aggression, psychosomatic disorders, psychomotor agitation, hubris, excessive feelings of power and superiority, repetitive and obsessive behaviors, paranoia-- although, let's face it, that's kind of me already.
Well, accept for the ability to focus. Clearly.
Starting last Friday, I've been taking 7mg a day with not much in the way of results, except for the first day, when I experienced feelings of EXTREMELY SOOTHING COMPETENCY. Notable side effects:
* the weird dry mouth thing (which has the advantage of making me drink more water, which I wanted to do anyway), and it's only horrible when I'm stuck on the metro;
* decreased appetite like whoa-- the first day it did not occur to me that I should eat until sometime in the evening, which is not healthy and also it makes my stomach hurt badly, so I will need to be careful about eating regularly and sufficiently;
* insomnia-- like last night, when I was typing this list at 3AM;
* doqz has grown a beard, possibly as an act of beat poet solidarity.
So far it has not really helped me write my Melville paper. Today I start 10mg a day, but that's not really going to change the essential fact that Herman Melville was nuts.
Here are some quotations:
In humans, however, there is no systematic evidence of the development of behavioral sensitization to amphetamine after acute or chronic amphetamine treatment when the drug is used in the therapeutic dose range (i.e., is not abused).
-- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amphetamine_dependence
During World War II amphetamine was extensively used to combat fatigue and increase alertness in soldiers.
-- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amphetamine
About four fingers of king-hell Crank would do the trick, but I am not optimistic.
-- Hunter S. Thompson
I want to write about it both to invite anyone's input and to self-monitor for any of the psychological side effects listed on Wikipedia: euphoria, anxiety, increased libido, alertness, concentration, energy, self-esteem, self-confidence, sociability, irritability, aggression, psychosomatic disorders, psychomotor agitation, hubris, excessive feelings of power and superiority, repetitive and obsessive behaviors, paranoia-- although, let's face it, that's kind of me already.
Well, accept for the ability to focus. Clearly.
Starting last Friday, I've been taking 7mg a day with not much in the way of results, except for the first day, when I experienced feelings of EXTREMELY SOOTHING COMPETENCY. Notable side effects:
* the weird dry mouth thing (which has the advantage of making me drink more water, which I wanted to do anyway), and it's only horrible when I'm stuck on the metro;
* decreased appetite like whoa-- the first day it did not occur to me that I should eat until sometime in the evening, which is not healthy and also it makes my stomach hurt badly, so I will need to be careful about eating regularly and sufficiently;
* insomnia-- like last night, when I was typing this list at 3AM;
* doqz has grown a beard, possibly as an act of beat poet solidarity.
So far it has not really helped me write my Melville paper. Today I start 10mg a day, but that's not really going to change the essential fact that Herman Melville was nuts.
Here are some quotations:
In humans, however, there is no systematic evidence of the development of behavioral sensitization to amphetamine after acute or chronic amphetamine treatment when the drug is used in the therapeutic dose range (i.e., is not abused).
-- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amphetamine_dependence
During World War II amphetamine was extensively used to combat fatigue and increase alertness in soldiers.
-- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amphetamine
About four fingers of king-hell Crank would do the trick, but I am not optimistic.
-- Hunter S. Thompson