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I feel like a load has been lifted off my shoulders. Honest. I made up with Kristin. We got into a really big fight last year when I started hanging out with John. Now that I'm getting my head back, that's one of the things I regret most. We had alot of laughs and good times in Chemistry. lol. Mr Houtson was deff. not all there in the head. Remember the candy canes? ROFL. But yea.
Moving on is soo hard. I feel all depressed about it. I wish there was some way to make it easier. But I don't think there is. I'm learning how to let go of my past, and it hurts. Because I had some happy memories with john and I don't want to let them go. But I have to. It hurts alot to think about them. I was looking through my scrapbook and I have so many pictures with him. I was soo happy when we were together. And now look how I am. I'm a depressed shrew. Gah. But yea. I guess this is going to take longer than I thought.
I've been thinking alot about a certain someone as well. I haven't really held a conversation with him, but I feel like I want to get to know him a little better. Know what I mean? It's really weird. like I actually had a dream about him last night. I was at a party and he happened to be there. I knew like maybe 1 person there and he kept looking at me. The person I knew told me to go talk to him but I was way too embarassed to talk to him. I have this really insane fear of rejection, whether it be veiled or open. And I guess that creeped over into my dream. But he finally came up and asked me to dance with him and we talked for what seemed like hours. Then, I woke up. It was weird. Does anyone interpret dreams? If you do, could you give me your run on what this might mean? I am not saying any names because I know a few of you know him. Gah. this is really bothering me. Maybe that's one of the things I need to change. Maybe I need to open up and actually talk to him, next time I see him. I don't know.
But yea. This summer has been soo boring. Does anyone want to hang out? Or anything?lol. I want to go see The Chronicles Of Riddick, but I have no one to go with and I'm not sure if my mom and dad would lone me the money to go. Gir. I hate not having money. Which brings me to this: Does anyone know of a place in Jensen that is hiring? I really need a job. lol. Like really bad.
But yea. I got the name of the new GC cd that's upcoming. The Chronicles of Life and Death. lol. So does not sound like a GC title. But then again, maybe it is now. I can't wait to see how different this one is. I mean, the first one was awesome. The second one was okay. But I liked the first one better. I hope this one is really fucking awesome. I am soo ready for new GC. Too bad they won't be on any FLA tour dates for Warped. That would be great. Maybe I should call my cousin. Find out when i can actually see him again.That would be the best. lol. but yea.
The Cure is coming to town on July 24th. But now I am being forced to chose between them and Evanescence. I really love evanescence, but I really want to see the Cure. Gir. But then again, if I go see Evanescence, I can go to the Buzz's Battle Of The Bands. lol. That would be cool too. Especially if any of the local bands I listen to goes. That would be awesome. But the choices!!! Some one help me decide!!!!!!!!! *gives self a headache* But yea. I'm gonna go. Later.
<3 Mandy
Moving on is soo hard. I feel all depressed about it. I wish there was some way to make it easier. But I don't think there is. I'm learning how to let go of my past, and it hurts. Because I had some happy memories with john and I don't want to let them go. But I have to. It hurts alot to think about them. I was looking through my scrapbook and I have so many pictures with him. I was soo happy when we were together. And now look how I am. I'm a depressed shrew. Gah. But yea. I guess this is going to take longer than I thought.
I've been thinking alot about a certain someone as well. I haven't really held a conversation with him, but I feel like I want to get to know him a little better. Know what I mean? It's really weird. like I actually had a dream about him last night. I was at a party and he happened to be there. I knew like maybe 1 person there and he kept looking at me. The person I knew told me to go talk to him but I was way too embarassed to talk to him. I have this really insane fear of rejection, whether it be veiled or open. And I guess that creeped over into my dream. But he finally came up and asked me to dance with him and we talked for what seemed like hours. Then, I woke up. It was weird. Does anyone interpret dreams? If you do, could you give me your run on what this might mean? I am not saying any names because I know a few of you know him. Gah. this is really bothering me. Maybe that's one of the things I need to change. Maybe I need to open up and actually talk to him, next time I see him. I don't know.
But yea. This summer has been soo boring. Does anyone want to hang out? Or anything?lol. I want to go see The Chronicles Of Riddick, but I have no one to go with and I'm not sure if my mom and dad would lone me the money to go. Gir. I hate not having money. Which brings me to this: Does anyone know of a place in Jensen that is hiring? I really need a job. lol. Like really bad.
But yea. I got the name of the new GC cd that's upcoming. The Chronicles of Life and Death. lol. So does not sound like a GC title. But then again, maybe it is now. I can't wait to see how different this one is. I mean, the first one was awesome. The second one was okay. But I liked the first one better. I hope this one is really fucking awesome. I am soo ready for new GC. Too bad they won't be on any FLA tour dates for Warped. That would be great. Maybe I should call my cousin. Find out when i can actually see him again.That would be the best. lol. but yea.
The Cure is coming to town on July 24th. But now I am being forced to chose between them and Evanescence. I really love evanescence, but I really want to see the Cure. Gir. But then again, if I go see Evanescence, I can go to the Buzz's Battle Of The Bands. lol. That would be cool too. Especially if any of the local bands I listen to goes. That would be awesome. But the choices!!! Some one help me decide!!!!!!!!! *gives self a headache* But yea. I'm gonna go. Later.
<3 Mandy