where can life take me?
as of this point, I have two possible job openings in california. an amazing grocery store with the wides variety of produce i could have never imagined in my life until i saw it. and also, an organic raw juice bar that sits right on the bay in san fran, not too close to the main tourist spot.
as of this point, I have two possible possibilities in indiana. finally started talking to a guy that i have been digging for almost two years, who happens to be moving when i need to move, who also happens to be single when i return home. for the record, i knew this would happen when i came back.. i wished it to, so of course it did. an added plus is that he holds many of the qualities ive asked for in a future lover. I believe in love and friendship, and I can see either/both of these happening.
I could go back to working at rainbow, mary would re hire me, but i dont want really want that as much as i'd love to be getting their discount.
I am not so confused as I was, unless my head starts doing all the talking, THEN I just start running myself into a circle. I did talk to brain today and told him about my second thoughts on coming back to cali. I happened to be in rainbow blossom, very distracting, so yes, my head was running itself into circles. I still need to call him back. I guess I will figure this life out.
I know I need to be doing some internal work. I used to spend a lot of time bringing a lot of negative hidden emotions to the surface of my consciousness so I could forgive or let that go, move on and start incorporating thoughts and beliefs I believe made me a happier, more sufficent, productive ME!
The past few months I have basically been living for my ego, or the person on the outside. the shell of me, the person you interact with when we hangout. Which is okay, but I know that true change comes from within. I know this works, I've witnessed that when I work from the inside, thats the only thing that needs any work, the outside world just somehow fixes itself. because I cant really change anyone else, and I cant get anyone to make up my mind for me no matter how much i'd like to ignore the fact that I need to make some kind of decision.
If I can change the way I perceive this situation, then I can perceive different solutions.
I'm teaching myself this new style of alchemy, making elixars, or tonic drinks. I spend a few hours in the woods today a few herbs and mushrooms for the first test run, and WOW! the drink is delicious. If you never thought you could drink something that just automatically made you stronger, then hello! You can! I can show you if you want. I'm no professional, yet! but it's easy enough if you put in the time.
as of this point, I have two possible possibilities in indiana. finally started talking to a guy that i have been digging for almost two years, who happens to be moving when i need to move, who also happens to be single when i return home. for the record, i knew this would happen when i came back.. i wished it to, so of course it did. an added plus is that he holds many of the qualities ive asked for in a future lover. I believe in love and friendship, and I can see either/both of these happening.
I could go back to working at rainbow, mary would re hire me, but i dont want really want that as much as i'd love to be getting their discount.
I am not so confused as I was, unless my head starts doing all the talking, THEN I just start running myself into a circle. I did talk to brain today and told him about my second thoughts on coming back to cali. I happened to be in rainbow blossom, very distracting, so yes, my head was running itself into circles. I still need to call him back. I guess I will figure this life out.
I know I need to be doing some internal work. I used to spend a lot of time bringing a lot of negative hidden emotions to the surface of my consciousness so I could forgive or let that go, move on and start incorporating thoughts and beliefs I believe made me a happier, more sufficent, productive ME!
The past few months I have basically been living for my ego, or the person on the outside. the shell of me, the person you interact with when we hangout. Which is okay, but I know that true change comes from within. I know this works, I've witnessed that when I work from the inside, thats the only thing that needs any work, the outside world just somehow fixes itself. because I cant really change anyone else, and I cant get anyone to make up my mind for me no matter how much i'd like to ignore the fact that I need to make some kind of decision.
If I can change the way I perceive this situation, then I can perceive different solutions.
I'm teaching myself this new style of alchemy, making elixars, or tonic drinks. I spend a few hours in the woods today a few herbs and mushrooms for the first test run, and WOW! the drink is delicious. If you never thought you could drink something that just automatically made you stronger, then hello! You can! I can show you if you want. I'm no professional, yet! but it's easy enough if you put in the time.