the the fuck

[alesserennui]

soooo frustrated, but at the same time i'm hardly bothered.
jerid.
is there anything left to be said?

mutual love
mutual happiness
mutual longing
mutual jealousy
mutual fuuuuuucckkk

im am happy. i am situated and content. he gets me high, this is the part when i expect my hopes to succeed. he gets me low and i watch them float away down a stream so clear and slow, like my tears.
hes not denying us as it once was. i just have so many questions without answers.
damn it