Thank you
I thought after all this time this person deserves to be thanked.
And I'm going to give you the link to this so you know who you are.
We met when we were both 10 years old. Ten years old. Do I actually have to say how young that is? We were both so weird and anti-social in a way and for a while we didn't talk at all. The guys made fun of you, the girls made fun of me and we were both miserable in our own little corners. But before I started getting along with the girls, I started talking to you. And we found out we were both quite similar. We're romantic, we're old-fashioned in ways that we can't let other people know because we would be seen as weirdos.
Our friendship grew. You became my best guy friend - which is to say a lot since back then I usually only hung out with guys. But you were different. Being with you was different, I could be honest and I could be myself in a way I couldn't. And you still hung out with me even though I was so ugly back then!
Then you told me something that I... didn't really know how to answer. We were such little kids back then, how could I have known? But we stayed friends, and I was happy with that. And then you left. You just left, without saying anything! I never told you but it hurt me, and it hurts me even more now. Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell me you were leaving? I would have apologized for all the horrible things I did at that time...
Still, that wasn't the problem. The problem was that you were no longer here. And as time passed all that I had were memories... And then we started talking again. And we've been talking more and more each day.
We're different now. We've both changed so much. I don't know if you've noticed it, but I have. We're so different and we're so much more mature than all those years ago. We've grown and we're no longer the little kids we used to be. But you know what? I like you more now than I did so long ago, even though all we do is talk online and by text messages. We don't have all those stupid fights now and every day I find out a new thing we have in common. And it's wonderful and refreshing. And I can say with all honesty that I miss you more now when I don't talk to you for a few days than when you left and we didn't talk for ages. Because I think I've grown to need you. Is that a bad thing?
You're always there for me, and I've only realized this recently. You're always there to comfort me, to back me up, you never want to talk about your own problems but you always make me talk about what's bothering me. Even though I have this horrible self-esteem you're always trying to make me feel better, you're always complimenting me, telling me how wonderful I am and making me feel like the most special girl in the world. And, you know, those times when we start talking about how it would be if we lived together... Talking about that actually cheers me up a lot. Because I know that if it were with you, it would work. Because I think in a secret part of my heart I really want to be with you and I haven't convinced myself of that yet.
I doubt I will ever be able to thank you for this. For always being by my side, for always cheering me up, for always managing to make me feel better in every way - about myself and my future - and for... well, just for being as special as you are.
You make me feel better every time we talk. And I can only wish to someday be able to have that effect on you as well.
I had to write this down here because it's long and I don't like to waste time since we always have such little time to talk ^^;
Anyway. All I really want to say is...
Thank You.
And please don't ever leave me.
And I'm going to give you the link to this so you know who you are.
We met when we were both 10 years old. Ten years old. Do I actually have to say how young that is? We were both so weird and anti-social in a way and for a while we didn't talk at all. The guys made fun of you, the girls made fun of me and we were both miserable in our own little corners. But before I started getting along with the girls, I started talking to you. And we found out we were both quite similar. We're romantic, we're old-fashioned in ways that we can't let other people know because we would be seen as weirdos.
Our friendship grew. You became my best guy friend - which is to say a lot since back then I usually only hung out with guys. But you were different. Being with you was different, I could be honest and I could be myself in a way I couldn't. And you still hung out with me even though I was so ugly back then!
Then you told me something that I... didn't really know how to answer. We were such little kids back then, how could I have known? But we stayed friends, and I was happy with that. And then you left. You just left, without saying anything! I never told you but it hurt me, and it hurts me even more now. Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell me you were leaving? I would have apologized for all the horrible things I did at that time...
Still, that wasn't the problem. The problem was that you were no longer here. And as time passed all that I had were memories... And then we started talking again. And we've been talking more and more each day.
We're different now. We've both changed so much. I don't know if you've noticed it, but I have. We're so different and we're so much more mature than all those years ago. We've grown and we're no longer the little kids we used to be. But you know what? I like you more now than I did so long ago, even though all we do is talk online and by text messages. We don't have all those stupid fights now and every day I find out a new thing we have in common. And it's wonderful and refreshing. And I can say with all honesty that I miss you more now when I don't talk to you for a few days than when you left and we didn't talk for ages. Because I think I've grown to need you. Is that a bad thing?
You're always there for me, and I've only realized this recently. You're always there to comfort me, to back me up, you never want to talk about your own problems but you always make me talk about what's bothering me. Even though I have this horrible self-esteem you're always trying to make me feel better, you're always complimenting me, telling me how wonderful I am and making me feel like the most special girl in the world. And, you know, those times when we start talking about how it would be if we lived together... Talking about that actually cheers me up a lot. Because I know that if it were with you, it would work. Because I think in a secret part of my heart I really want to be with you and I haven't convinced myself of that yet.
I doubt I will ever be able to thank you for this. For always being by my side, for always cheering me up, for always managing to make me feel better in every way - about myself and my future - and for... well, just for being as special as you are.
You make me feel better every time we talk. And I can only wish to someday be able to have that effect on you as well.
I had to write this down here because it's long and I don't like to waste time since we always have such little time to talk ^^;
Anyway. All I really want to say is...
Thank You.
And please don't ever leave me.