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I'll be around here much more. I delete my whole account with livejournal a little while ago but then realized that I don't want to loose all this. Wait... haha, I forgot it's blocked. Anyway, I "undeleted" (cuz I guess you can do that nowadays) my profile beacuse I still want to be able to come back every once and awhile and read all this bullshit I call "writing" and remember things. haha geee... kinda like a journal. But I doubt I will be making many entries in the future. I'm happy... and it seems as though I only write when something is wrong, or I am unhappy.
Anyway, it's super early, and I'm blanking. I don't know if it's cuz it's super early or because... I'm happy and I have nothing to "rant" about. haha. Either way... I don't really care much.
Things with Josh are good. It's pretty odd, sometimes I feel like I have known this guy for ages, yet other times I feel like he doesn't know a damn thing about me. We talk A LOT... that's something I'm new at. I never used to talk, but for some reason, most times, it comes easy if I'm talking with him. Other times though it's super frustrating because I don't feel like I can alway just say what I want, but it's coming a long. I just have to constantly remind him that this is all new to me. Ive been stubborn for the past couple years not letting ANYONE get close to me for awhile just because I have felt so used and mistreated since... high school, and it's been hard letting someone in, but I think slowly...but defintely surely, he's cracking my wall down. It's terrifying yet fun at the same time.
Friends though... friends seem to be a problem lately.
Seems like there is no pleasing everyone. I was token single girl... forrrever, and the couples would always give my bitter ass shit for.. well being bitter and "not knowing" what it's like. They were always trying to "find me" someone, and hook me up with people. Which, yeah, was nice because I didn't really want to be single forever. Blah blah blah... now my single friends (which is a significantly bigger ratio) seem to hate the fact that I have found someone. I can't win. Friends are secluding me more and more and actually "making fun" of me. haha. I thought that "making fun" of people gets ruled out once you graduate elementary school. So, I like to spend time with my boyfriend. Get the fuck over it... he's my BOYFRIEND! People act as though I completely fell off the face of the earth... no, I just found someone that I like to spend time with. If it bothers you and you can't give up a LITTLE slice of time with me so I can be in a happy relationship... then I don't know what to say. haha. Find someone of your own, I guess. But shut the FUCK up and quit acting like I'm obsessed and NEVER get out... because I do. And we don't spend nearly as much time together as everyone thinks we do. suck it!
:)
Anyway, it's super early, and I'm blanking. I don't know if it's cuz it's super early or because... I'm happy and I have nothing to "rant" about. haha. Either way... I don't really care much.
Things with Josh are good. It's pretty odd, sometimes I feel like I have known this guy for ages, yet other times I feel like he doesn't know a damn thing about me. We talk A LOT... that's something I'm new at. I never used to talk, but for some reason, most times, it comes easy if I'm talking with him. Other times though it's super frustrating because I don't feel like I can alway just say what I want, but it's coming a long. I just have to constantly remind him that this is all new to me. Ive been stubborn for the past couple years not letting ANYONE get close to me for awhile just because I have felt so used and mistreated since... high school, and it's been hard letting someone in, but I think slowly...but defintely surely, he's cracking my wall down. It's terrifying yet fun at the same time.
Friends though... friends seem to be a problem lately.
Seems like there is no pleasing everyone. I was token single girl... forrrever, and the couples would always give my bitter ass shit for.. well being bitter and "not knowing" what it's like. They were always trying to "find me" someone, and hook me up with people. Which, yeah, was nice because I didn't really want to be single forever. Blah blah blah... now my single friends (which is a significantly bigger ratio) seem to hate the fact that I have found someone. I can't win. Friends are secluding me more and more and actually "making fun" of me. haha. I thought that "making fun" of people gets ruled out once you graduate elementary school. So, I like to spend time with my boyfriend. Get the fuck over it... he's my BOYFRIEND! People act as though I completely fell off the face of the earth... no, I just found someone that I like to spend time with. If it bothers you and you can't give up a LITTLE slice of time with me so I can be in a happy relationship... then I don't know what to say. haha. Find someone of your own, I guess. But shut the FUCK up and quit acting like I'm obsessed and NEVER get out... because I do. And we don't spend nearly as much time together as everyone thinks we do. suck it!
:)