random inspiration
this may seem a bit random but, i was reading someone's journal and i realized that it dosen't really talk about what has happened but it's more a collection of random thoughts. i think maybe i'll post in here every once in a while with some thoughts i have. hmmm... lets see...
i've been thinking about friends a lot lately. probably becuase of the fact that i have not seen some of them as much as i'd like to and i have some outstanding tensions with others. it makes me wonder: what is a friendship? a connection between two people is a good start. but what else? is there/should there be responsibilities in one, or should they only serve as a sort of entertainment (hanging out)? i personally think that there are many responsabilties in a friendship, including backing them up. many people seemed to have forgetten this; when something immoral happens they don't have the backbone to say anything. i know sometimes i should say something and don't but this is just too much.
this kind of thing gets me thinking about jealousy. many people seem to only want a certain friends for certain things, and when they break that mold, or show a side that has been existent but not nessesarily shown, they freak out and disconnect. i think if you can't accept people changing then you are not truly a good friend.
eh who knows though. im kinda being a hypocrite when i say that. i usually will back off from someone that is pissing me off and wait it out instead of dealing with it. but surprsingly it works mostly. i think it just depends on the person, with some i would be more active about it.
something i've noticed about my self is that i don't nessesarily keep my space from people but i can always detach my self if nessesary. i think its good. usually i can find new people that make me happy and i can talk to pretty easily. most people think this is bad becuase i don't seek to rebuild relationships that may need to be rebuilt, but i dissagree. i only choose to detach myself from these realtionships when i can already see that if i tried to fix it it would either be one-sided, or forced. in other words, the attempt would be futile. i hate to sound pessimistic but thats the way life is.
people come in and out of your life and you have to be able to accept that.
don't get me wrong, i try to work stuff out, i just don't dwell on it when it's obvious nothings working.
i hope that next year isn't boring, i think without my senior friends, esp. allie, i might wind up kinda bored sometimes. oh well... i guess we will see. i'm not feeling pessimistic about it.
ah. writing was nice. i hadn't ever really tried this and i'm glad i did. it was relaxing. i know that most of the things i wrote sound pessimistic but you just have to know that's only the tone i happen to be writing in. i really am not very pessimistic about many things, just realistic.
i've been thinking about friends a lot lately. probably becuase of the fact that i have not seen some of them as much as i'd like to and i have some outstanding tensions with others. it makes me wonder: what is a friendship? a connection between two people is a good start. but what else? is there/should there be responsibilities in one, or should they only serve as a sort of entertainment (hanging out)? i personally think that there are many responsabilties in a friendship, including backing them up. many people seemed to have forgetten this; when something immoral happens they don't have the backbone to say anything. i know sometimes i should say something and don't but this is just too much.
this kind of thing gets me thinking about jealousy. many people seem to only want a certain friends for certain things, and when they break that mold, or show a side that has been existent but not nessesarily shown, they freak out and disconnect. i think if you can't accept people changing then you are not truly a good friend.
eh who knows though. im kinda being a hypocrite when i say that. i usually will back off from someone that is pissing me off and wait it out instead of dealing with it. but surprsingly it works mostly. i think it just depends on the person, with some i would be more active about it.
something i've noticed about my self is that i don't nessesarily keep my space from people but i can always detach my self if nessesary. i think its good. usually i can find new people that make me happy and i can talk to pretty easily. most people think this is bad becuase i don't seek to rebuild relationships that may need to be rebuilt, but i dissagree. i only choose to detach myself from these realtionships when i can already see that if i tried to fix it it would either be one-sided, or forced. in other words, the attempt would be futile. i hate to sound pessimistic but thats the way life is.
people come in and out of your life and you have to be able to accept that.
don't get me wrong, i try to work stuff out, i just don't dwell on it when it's obvious nothings working.
i hope that next year isn't boring, i think without my senior friends, esp. allie, i might wind up kinda bored sometimes. oh well... i guess we will see. i'm not feeling pessimistic about it.
ah. writing was nice. i hadn't ever really tried this and i'm glad i did. it was relaxing. i know that most of the things i wrote sound pessimistic but you just have to know that's only the tone i happen to be writing in. i really am not very pessimistic about many things, just realistic.