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My heart hurts. I have rain clouds in my head. But I have no idea why, I have no reason to be blue. I'm about to get promoted. No drama in my life. Sure, my brother is having a tough time in school. Fifth grade is tough. Yeah, I miss my bestfriends that all decided to move away within two years. I definitely miss my closest everything in St. Petersburg. But, everything is okay. I've been taking long walks after work. I took my dog today. Her tumor is getting really big on her tummy, but she doesn't notice. She's lost 30+ lbs. For a rottweiler, that's ridiculous. I try not to think about it. She's 10 1/2 and that's pretty old for a dog her size. She's still okay. Everything is okay. Being back at work is nice after two weeks off. I appreciate it. Having something to do, having deadlines. School starts soon. Two weeks. I just want to sleep forever.
Nothing is monumentally wrong. Nothing is dramatic. Nothing is eating at my feelings. But I just feel so blue. Not a jazz blue, but a sky blue. Calm, with a tear-jerking scratch in the back of my throat.
I read the following today. My brother Max, who is 11, wrote this for my 8 year old brother at school. The question: During break you spend time with your family. Name someone that has significantly influenced you in your life and why:
"My brother beceuse he made so many friends and his friends became my friends and we played together outside and inside going to the park and swing on the swingset and inside play viedo games there. And he keeps me company when I get lonely , plus he plays with me on the xbox360. And we go to our friends almost every day. and we always play fair , and on vactions we stay up late and sleep in every day. And thats how changed my life forever.And if he didn't exist I'd go nuts! So I wonder if he didn't exist would I have that much friends? would I lonly? would I go insane? Maybe? So my brother really changend my life FOREVER."
That's deep for an 11 year old. I cried.
Nothing is monumentally wrong. Nothing is dramatic. Nothing is eating at my feelings. But I just feel so blue. Not a jazz blue, but a sky blue. Calm, with a tear-jerking scratch in the back of my throat.
I read the following today. My brother Max, who is 11, wrote this for my 8 year old brother at school. The question: During break you spend time with your family. Name someone that has significantly influenced you in your life and why:
"My brother beceuse he made so many friends and his friends became my friends and we played together outside and inside going to the park and swing on the swingset and inside play viedo games there. And he keeps me company when I get lonely , plus he plays with me on the xbox360. And we go to our friends almost every day. and we always play fair , and on vactions we stay up late and sleep in every day. And thats how changed my life forever.And if he didn't exist I'd go nuts! So I wonder if he didn't exist would I have that much friends? would I lonly? would I go insane? Maybe? So my brother really changend my life FOREVER."
That's deep for an 11 year old. I cried.