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The walls of the cubicles are blue, and they have bright green, bright red, and bright orange walls/ceilings/columns here. I am not sure if this color scheme is supposed to make the place more fun,(maybe it would be if there were more than ten people in the entire building?) but it reminds me too much of the oversimplifyed worlds they made the children inhabit in my preschools, and the smell of painted toys and carpet and some sort of vague morning antiseptic that covered, it seemed, the furniture and then spread to the air. I remember there was a room lined with little beds that had fruit pictures on the headboards and impersonal blankets with grass-colored fuzz in the diamonds in the center (the fuzz was the actual blanket, drawn into a linen slip.) Back then the beds seemed to stretch to all sides of the world, and all of us were made to lie down in the daylight. I think a lot of the children slept, but I couldn't. How can you sleep in the middle of the day? One time I had a bed by a window, and there was an apartment building very near, I think running perpendicular to my stretched arms, and I could see the quiet daylight windows and balconies, the sort that reveal just about nothing, and then I saw one of the apartments burning. There was smoke coming out, and the stone was turning black, and of course there were the orange flames. I might have thought it was a dream, but I am pretty sure that the balcony was charred whenever I looked at it afterwards. And then I thought there was a ghost in this other window once, (but this wasn't from a bed, but from outside), because the shirt and tie seemed to walk without limbs and head. I was always looking for ghosts. Watched too many movies probably.
Anyway...that aside, I worked on another page of the comic yesterday, and I think that its almost done, surprisingly soon, though I guess I ought to polish it and of course add the bubbles. I still should probably redo much of that first page, and I am not nearly done with the actual second one, (the one
I did yesterday should probably come after, though I am not sure). But at least there is some minute progress.
I want to be able to sleep better...
And to fill empty time, stop wasting time.
I hope they give me something to do soon, because it makes me feel guilty when they don't.
I wonder what everyone dreamt last night.
Anyway...that aside, I worked on another page of the comic yesterday, and I think that its almost done, surprisingly soon, though I guess I ought to polish it and of course add the bubbles. I still should probably redo much of that first page, and I am not nearly done with the actual second one, (the one
I did yesterday should probably come after, though I am not sure). But at least there is some minute progress.
I want to be able to sleep better...
And to fill empty time, stop wasting time.
I hope they give me something to do soon, because it makes me feel guilty when they don't.
I wonder what everyone dreamt last night.