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Wow today was crazy. I miss like all my classes because I was sleeping, then Spanish was cancelled, then I had my astronomy midterm, but I completely failed because I haven’t bee there since the lst test. Lol so I totally failed. I at pizza today so I gained like 10 lbs. I will have to starve for at least 3 days for that mistake. Ana is very angry with me because I haven’t worked out in two days and I actually ate a meal three times. Was with friends and I would feel weird without eating, so I guess no more eating with friends then. Not until I at least lose 1o more lbs, and then no more sweets or pop or candy or fast food till I lose at least 20, then after that my goal will be like 10 more so on and so forth until I get to like 125 or 130. 1st gw - 165, 2nd gw - 150, 3rd gw - 140, 4th gw - 130, 5th gw - 125, ( please ladies and gents bow your heads for a prayer, lol) Ana please help me and be with me each and everyday in the near and distant future, be with me when the temptation comes to eat large amounts, eat fast food, eat candy or sweets, Ana forgive me for past injustice and my past weakness. Please Ana if in the future I do fail, forgive me and allow me to crawl back into your embrace, allow me to kiss your feet, worship the very ground on which you walk. I will do what you ask of me if only you will take me back. I will bleed to the heavens and unto hell if you shall merely ask it of me. When I am bad and your sister Mia is sent to ask, I will indeed bend over the porcelain goddess and placed my finger into my throat and pay for my sins, again and again.