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It's rare that I dream. Just about anyone who knows me knows that; I seldom speak of dreaming, and when discussing the subject of "Have any interesting dreams last night?" I usually decline because I have nothing to go on. But it's rarer that my dreams make sense, even more so is when I'm unnerved by one of my dreams.
Last night I had one of those dreams.
Those of you who are skeptical of some of things I say regarding my beliefs and abilities will probably tell me that this dream of mine meant nothing and that I should just brush it off, but that just doesn't feel possible. The fact that I'm actually posting a journal about it (or the fact that I'm posting in this thing at all) should be enough to say that this has me a bit off of my rocker.
Most of the dream is lost to me now, but there are parts that I can remember as vividly as I were living them now as I type this up. I'll start with some things in the dream that I don't think matter too much: I remember quite easily that I could at some point see gas prices being in the $4.50 range; this is the one thing about the dream that I don't understand the importance of, maybe it's very important, maybe it's completely useless information and not tied to the rest of the dream in the least. The rest of what I can remember about this dream is that it involved Jess. I can't remember where the dream took place, but there were a lot of people, maybe it was the high school, maybe it was somewhere else, but she was there. She was a bit different, her hair was longer, wavy (like when she doesn't use her hair straightener), and a lighter color than is natural for her. She and a bunch of people rushed toward me (I can't remember who the two or three people around her were, I think they were all female) and she starts telling me about how much she's missed me and how much she's needed me and all that, and... in the middle of her talking, I just kiss her, completely stopping her, and she clings to me. It was soon after this that I woke up, so there isn't much left to it, but it left me unnerved... That after all this time, hating her for how I was treated, by her and by her family, that this dream, a subconscious manifestation or precognitive vision, would appear in my head...
Last night I had one of those dreams.
Those of you who are skeptical of some of things I say regarding my beliefs and abilities will probably tell me that this dream of mine meant nothing and that I should just brush it off, but that just doesn't feel possible. The fact that I'm actually posting a journal about it (or the fact that I'm posting in this thing at all) should be enough to say that this has me a bit off of my rocker.
Most of the dream is lost to me now, but there are parts that I can remember as vividly as I were living them now as I type this up. I'll start with some things in the dream that I don't think matter too much: I remember quite easily that I could at some point see gas prices being in the $4.50 range; this is the one thing about the dream that I don't understand the importance of, maybe it's very important, maybe it's completely useless information and not tied to the rest of the dream in the least. The rest of what I can remember about this dream is that it involved Jess. I can't remember where the dream took place, but there were a lot of people, maybe it was the high school, maybe it was somewhere else, but she was there. She was a bit different, her hair was longer, wavy (like when she doesn't use her hair straightener), and a lighter color than is natural for her. She and a bunch of people rushed toward me (I can't remember who the two or three people around her were, I think they were all female) and she starts telling me about how much she's missed me and how much she's needed me and all that, and... in the middle of her talking, I just kiss her, completely stopping her, and she clings to me. It was soon after this that I woke up, so there isn't much left to it, but it left me unnerved... That after all this time, hating her for how I was treated, by her and by her family, that this dream, a subconscious manifestation or precognitive vision, would appear in my head...