Crazy or Love? or Crazy for Love?
Crazy or Love? or Crazy for Love?
Titled : Crazy or Love? or Crazy for Love?
Author : aleelolly
Pairing : YamaChii, Chiitaro, YamaRyu (?)
Genre : Angst (?)
Summary : Love is Crazy? Maybe..
Dedicated to : jlrui hohoho :D I hope you’ll read and like it Rui-chan.. I’m sorry it’s not good but I tried my best. Thank you for always making a great fics. You inspired me :D and maybe someday I’ll make fic about our favourite pairing :D
NOTE : Okay, this is my first fic. So shy. And a lot of bad grammars. I’m suck at english so I’m so sorry (_ _!) un-betaed too.. and I think it’s too long -__- but I hope you can enjoy it :D
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"Ryu ..." said Daiki when opening the door of Ryutaro’s apartment. He suddenly stopped when seeing the scene in front of him, his eyes widened and he screamed unconsciously, "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!", Dropping the groceries he was carrying.
Takaki who standing behind him went straight into the room. His eyes widened. In front of him, Yamada Ryosuke was holding a trophy, covered by blood. And Ryutaro’s body on the floor, with head full of blood. Yamada looked so shocked and confused seeing Daiki and Takaki. The bloody trophy felt from his hand.
"You!!" Takaki ran towards Yamada and punched his nose. "DAMT IT! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Takaki asked while continued to punch Yamada’s face again and again. Daiki, who accidentally had seen Yamada hit Ryutaro’s head with the trophy, ran towards him and tried shaking Ryutaro. "Ryu-chan! Ryu-chan! Ryu .. Ryu! RYUTAROOO!!" Daiki shouted when he realized that Ryutaro was no longer breathing.
Takaki turned into Daiki. Knowing what had happened, his emotion lifted up. He pulled Yamada’s collar, "Shit! Why? Why? Why are you doing this?" He said, shaking Yamada’s collar.
Yamada was silent, but his eyes stared at Ryutaro dead body. Then he faced Takaki. "Sick ..." Yama whispered. Takaki frowned, didn’t really understand. "I'm sick .." sudden tears fell from Yamada's eyes. "I'm sick of him.. I .. "
Takaki shocked, his face full of anger, “What? But.. but he..” Yamada suddenly threw himself into the floor. Closed his eyes and shut his ears with both hands, then he cried aloud, "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!"
*****
Takaki already called the police. Yamada was his best friend, but he knew he did the right thing to call the police. How kind Yamada on his eyes, Yamada had done a crime. He called some of their friends too. So, Keito and Yuto were on the scene. They looked so shock too. Never thought that the kind and heartwarming Yamada could do this. When Yamada was herded to the police car, someone shouting.
“Yama-chaaaan!!” a tiny black haired boy ran towards them. Suddenly hugged Yamada. His eyes full of tears
“Chi-chan..” Yuto said. Takaki, Daiki and Keito just sighed. They knew Chinen would be like this. They knew Chinen and Yamada was really close. Knowing his bestfriend had done something unexpected would make Chinen really shocked.
Chinen still hugged Yamada, “Yuto called me.. Why? Why? Why did you do this?” he sobbed. Yamada looked away. Didn’t want to see Chinen’s face. “Why? Yama-chan! Answer me!”
“Go away Chi,” said Yamada, still looked away.
“But.. why? I..”
“SHUT UP CHI!! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOBBING!! GO AWAY FROM ME!!” Yamada suddenly shouted out. “Just go away...”
Chinen shocked. Yuto ran towards them, “Yama-chan! You’re the worst! You don’t know how much Chii worried about you.”
Yamada just stared at Yuto. Then seeing Chinen who looked so broke and hurt and scared. Then he got into the police car without a word. “Chi-chan, are you okay?” asked Yuto. Chinen nodded, but his body shivering. Takaki, Daiki and Keito approached them.
“Why..?” Chinen sobbed. Looking the police car went away
*****
It’s already 11 p.m. but Chinen still awake. He couldn’t sleep. All his thinking was about Yamada. He felt uneasy. His head hurts. Not because he’s sick or something, but because he thought a lot of things on his head. And the tears started falling when he re-called his memories of that day.
“Stop it, Chi!” said Ryutaro firmly. Chinen tilted his head, didn’t understand what Ryutaro’s means. That afternoon, Ryutaro suddenly asked Chinen to go to his apartment.
“Ryu-chan..? What do you mean?” asked Chinen with his innocent face. Ryutaro suddenly pulled Chinen’s Collar, “STOP CHI!! THROW AWAY YOUR INNONCENT FACE!! I KNOW CHII!! I KNOW!!”
Chinen tried to release himself from Ryutaro. His smile disappeared seeing Ryutaro’s anger, “Ryu-chan.. What..”
“STOP IT!! STOP BOTHERING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH RYOSUKE!! DO YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOUR AFFAIR WITH HIM??” Ryutaro shouted.
Chinen rolled his eyes, a smile curved on his lips, “So, you already know?”
“ I KNEW IT FROM THE FIRST!! I KNOW YOU TWO ALWAYS CHEATED BEHIND MY BACK, KISSING, HAVING SEX!! EVEN WHEN WE’RE TOGETHER, YOU TWO FLIRTING EACH OTHER SECRETLY!! RYOSUKE IS MINE AND...”
“And he loves me more,” cutted Chinen calmly., “Well, if you already knew about our affair why you didn’t break up with Ryo-chan? it would be better for all of us, right?”
“What? I’m his boyfriend! And I love him, more than anything in the world. I really really love him. But why are you so selfish Chi? You stole him from me! Why..”
“Stole??” cutted Chinen again, “Ryutaro!! One thing you should know, Ryosuke and I love each other. We were destined to be together. Don’t you know that Ryosuke really want to break up with you? He didn’t love you. He just pretended. All things that he did to you were fake. Because he pitied you..”
“LIAR!!” shouted Ryutaro, “YOU’RE LIAR CHI!! RYOSUKE LOVES ME!! YOU’RE SELFISH CHI!! YOU STOLE HIM!! YOU’RE SLY AND SELFISH..”
“SELFISH SELFISH SELFISH!! WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SAID THAT WORD?” Chinen roaring, “Wake up Ryutaro!! Don’t lie to yourself. I know you’re not that stupid. You know how Ryosuke felt about you, right? just nothing.. no love.. no..”
Before Chinen could continue his words, Ryutaro had thrown him accros the room. BRUK!! Chinen fell crashing into the table. Ryutaro was so powerful, he thought. But it didn’t scared him because he defended his right, his Ryosuke. He stared at Ryutaro who stand in front of him but looking away to the window.
“I know you’ll be like this, Chii!” said Ryutaro, “But I’ll get him back no matter what happened. I’ll get Ryosuke back no matter he loves me or not. I’ll get back what I have. Get all of his heart and attention. Even if my rival is YOU! I’ll do everything to be with him. Everything..”
Chinen didn’t give his attention to what Ryutaro said. His attention focused on a trophy on the table near him. A trophy with Ryutaro and Yamada pic on it. A word “WINNER” was written under the pic. Yes, a trophy that Yamada and Ryutaro got when they participated on Lovely Couple Pic Contest. Gross, Chinen thought. But seeing Yamada smiled widely and happily on that pic made Chinen felt uneasy like something stabbing his heart. Seeing that pic always made his heart doubting Yamada's true love towards him and hearing Ryutaro words made him more worried....
“...You’re selfish Chi! And for God sake, you..” Ryutaro turn his head to face Chinen, but suddenly Chinen hit his head with the trophy, his prideful trophy for winning Lovely Couple Pic Contest.
“AHHH!!” Ryutaro fell into the floor. Blood came out from his head, “Chii...” said Ryutaro shocked. But unconsciously, Chinen hit his head again and again like a hunter who really want to kill his prey. Ryutaro couldn’t do anything with Chinen sudden act. Until he felt so hard to breath, no energy at all, couldn’t move his body and then he closed his eyes.. forever...
Chinen still hit Ryutaro’s head. And somehow he back to his sense. And he smell blood from everwhere. His eyes widen when he saw Ryutaro’s head covered by blood. Blood everywhere. On the floor, on his shirt and shockingly his hand held a bloody trophy.
“WHAT THE??” He threw away the trophy. Chinen didn’t really know what just happened. He just starring at Ryutaro dead body. And finally he realized.. he realized what he had done. He killed Ryutaro, “Noo..” Chinen mumbled. His body shivering. A fear came into him.
“I killed him.. what happened to me? I killed Ryu-chan. Why I did it? I.. I.. I..” Chinen kept mumbled. He’s so scared. He didn’t know what to do. He killed his friend. He’s scared to think what would happened to him next.
“What should I do?” tears fell from his beautiful eyes. “What should I do? Ryutaro.. I.. I..” then he saw Ryutaro’s phone on the floor. Maybe it fell when Chinen attacking him. Chinen grabbed it and ready to press some numbers. But he hesitated, “No, it’ll be worse. But.. but I don’t know what will I do with Ryu-chan,” Chinen thought. Finally he pressed some numbers.
“Moshi-moshi..” someone picked up.
“R ryo-chan..” Chinen sobbed.
“Eh? Yuri? Why do you use Ryutaro’s phone? What happened?” asked Yamada.
“Ryo-chan.. I.. I..” and Chinen explained what just happened with tears kept falling.
And as expected Yamada so shocked. But he told Chinen to wait for him. He told Chinen to not doing anything. And that’s Chinen now, curled on the floor with shivering body. He cried. He didn’t dare to look at Ryutaro again. He closed his eyes waiting for Yamada to come. And finally after waiting for such a long time, Yamada arrived.
Door opened and Yamada entered the room. “Yuri..” He stopped and his eyes widen seeing blood everywhere and Ryutaro dead body. And he found his “affair” love shivering on the floor. “Yuri!!”
Chinen stood up and ran towards Yamada. He hugged the older boy so tight. Still cried a river. Yamada hugged him back. He felt it, he felt that his Yuri was so scared and lost.
“R.. ryo-chan.. I’m sorry.. I don’t know what happened to me..” Chinen sobbed, “I.. I.. killed him. I killed Ryutaro. But.. I.. I.. sorry.. sorry..” Chinen felt his knees going numb. He felt like he would faint. “R.. ryo-cha..”
“Yuri.. yuri.. wake up.. I’m here.. I’m here..” Yamada hugged Chinen tightly. The he caressed Chinen’s hair. “It’s okay.. I’m here.. don’t be afraid anymore.. I’m here.” Yamada released his hug and wiped Chinen’s tears. It was so hurt seeing his Yuri like this.
Chinen stared at Yamada, “But.. I killed him..” he started sobbing again. “I.. I don’t know what should I do Ryo-chan.. and you must really hate me now.”
“Sssshhh Yuri.. It’s okay.. Yes, I was shocked but whatever happened I wouldn’t hate you,” Yamada kissed Chinen’s forehead. Well, he sure really shocked knowing his Yuri killed his so-called boyfriend. But somehow it didn’t matter him. He didn’t matter that Ryutaro dead. What all he thought is his Yuri. He knew he must protect him, took care of him and made him calm. His Yuri was his priority now.
Chinen hugged Yamada again, “But what should I do? Everyone will hate me. I’ll be arrested and going to jail. I.. I..” Chinen didn’t want to imagine it.
Yamada smiled. He knew he wouldn’t let it happened. He would save and protect his Yuri, “Yuri.. It’s okay. I’ll protect you. You’ll be fine, I promise. But you must obey my orders.”
Chinen looked at Yamada, “Eh? orders? what orders? what will you do?”
“Go home now and erase all memories of this accident. You must think that it never happened. Stay like before, like you did before. This accident never happened. And you didn’t killed someone. Obey me!” Yamada ordered.
Chinen frowned, “But what will you do? If something happened to you..”
“No.. I’ll be fine Yuri. Just believe me. Obey my words. You love me, right? So you should do what I said.” Yamada smiled gently.
“But..”
Yamada suddenly kissed Chinen’s lips. Kissed His favourite lips. And somehow Chinen felt relieved. He kissed back. For some seconds they shared their kiss. Yamada broke the kiss, “Now go home Yuri! And this accident never happened to you, okay dear?”
Chinen nodded. He didn’t know what will Yamada do but he believed His Ryo-chan. He hugged Yamada again and kissed him.
“Now go home,” said Yamada. And Chinen obey his order. Chinen went out of Ryutaro’s apartement with uneasy feeling. But he must go home now, that was his Ryo-chan wanted him to do.
Chinen was back to reality. Tears kept falling. He didn’t know that Yamada would did that far to save him.. to protect him. “SHUT UP CHI!! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOBBING!! GO AWAY FROM ME!!” yes, he knew that Yamada wanted him to stay quiet and that’s secret between them. Yamada did that to protect him. But he really hurt and uneasy, his heart broke because his Ryo-chan now was a prisoner, a killer. Being his substitute. He didn’t want that happened, but he’s afraid too. He’s so frustrated. He kept sobbing.
“.... Chii?” someone mumbled, “You still awake, huh?”
Chinen wiped his tears and facing the owner of the voice who was still lying next to him on his bed, “Yutti..”
Yuto tried to wake up. His eyes still hard to open. When all his sense was set. He looked at Chinen. Then he kissed his beloved one’s lips, his cute little boyfriend, “Why do you still awake? You need to sleep. Ahh.. yes, I know you sure still thinking about Yama-chan. Yes, he did something that shocked us. And he’s your bestfriend, but that’s what really happened. He killed Ryutaro, his own boyfriend. I know you’re worried about him. Me too, I’m worried about him too. But you need to sleep too Chii. Tommorow we must go to Ryu-chan’s funeral. And yes, we will go to see Yama-chan too, So sleep now, okay?
“Yutti..” Whispered Chinen, looked at his boyfriend. His face looked so worried. Yuto didn’t know about his affair with Ryosuke. And didn’t know what really happened.
Yuto looked at Chinen pale face. And he thought he knew what bothered his little boyfriend. “Chii-chan.. You know me, right? Are you worried about me? About us?”
“Ehh..?”
“You’re worried about me, right?” Yuto let a single sighed. Then he hugged Chinen, “I’ll not do that to you Chii, I promise! Yes, you sure think about Yama-chan’s motive for killing Ryu-chan. And as he said to the police, he killed Ryu-chan because he loved Ryu-chan so much. He didn’t want Ryu-chan to be with other people. He want Ryu-chan just to be his, so he killed him,” Yuto sighed, “And finally Ryu-chan would be his forever. Yes, Love sometimes make people go crazy and Yama-chan was one of them, who went blind for love. And did something out of control. BUT I would never do that to you my Chi-chan. So don’t worry. I’ll protect you and I’ll not hurt you, understand? So now sleep. I’ll hugged you tight, okay?”
Yuto smiled gently towards Chinen. Chinen smiled back. But inside his heart, he sighed. Yuto and the others didn’t know what really happened. And somehow he sure Yamada want him to keep quite too. He sure really loved Yamada, but he loved Yuto too, maybe not as much as he loved Yamada. But he know Yuto could make him warm again. Yuto’s love would make him happy too. Then Chinen kissed Yuto lips, the two shared kiss and lying down. They broke their kiss and Yuto embraced Chinen tightly. Chinen could felt the heartwarming aura from Yuto. He hugged Yuto back. And the two starting to sleep.
As Chinen closed his eyes, Ryutaro’s words suddenly kept replaying on his head. “YOU’RE SELFISH CHI!! YOU STOLE HIM!! YOU’RE SLY AND SELFISH..” Yes, maybe he’s selfish. But, Love is Crazy, right? And you can go crazy for your love, right? Maybe.. maybe it’s just for him, for Yamada, and maybe for some people. But, one thing he knew that he needed love to life, whatever it could make him crazy or not. Being loved was the important thing for him. That’s maybe the reason he’s so selfish if it’s about love. Well, everybody had different opinions, so he couldn’t be blamed. Yes, he couldn’t be blamed. And he promised to obey Yamada's order. To forget what really happened. To erase all his memories about his crime. Then Chinen smiled on his own and fell asleep.
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Yattaaaaaa~ My first fic :D well, it’s not good enough. I’m still amateur and lacking there and there and there. And it’s too long I think. And a lot of bad grammars and mistakes (_ _!) But hope you can enjoy it. Btw, I’m inspired by Seventeen - Selalu Mengalah Music Video (yeah, it was an old song LOL). You can watch it here >>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3J_4FpXVc-o