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Dear LJ,
I am in a computer lab at a dorm in Denton right now, it's 5AM.. I'm about to walk a few blocks to the 24 hour coffee shop. Tommorrow afternoon friends want me to go to Brownsville, Tx with them to thrift shop and celebrate my friend Jaye's b-day. I think I might do it.. I'll be back sunday then. I suppose hmmm.. Yeah.. it'll be fun.
Tonight was a blast of hanging with alot of people I know up here, a productive band practice. and dancing in the streets, no literally. We ever were filmed, we are fools.. living vigorously outlandish lives because well.. because we drank to much caffiene and don't give a damn. Life is short.. enjoy it.
Otherwise.. last night was odd.. I should note. I got home.. and well a friend who's been living at my APT by permission of my stepdad was staying over, but he was suppose to be gone, because he's moved into his new APT. To synopsize...
He unplugged the computer in the living room.. so I would wake him up fixing it, and he could basically lecture me on three things.. and these are relative quotes. "Shawn, you don't do anything around this apt. except loaf around, don't help out at all.. you're nothing but a bum, you should just realize this and admit it"... and "Shawn, I've come to see what kind of person you really are.. and you're just a spoiled brat!".. "Shawn, it seems that all you care about is material things and getting your way and our friendship means nothing to you..."..
Then I tried to sleep, but couldnt because I felt horrible about myself.. and that stirred up my pre-existing insecurites about myself and what im doing with my life.. and then when I did sleep.. the whole 2 hours I got.. I had nightmares that my teeth were breaking off and falling out and I was worried that I'd be unattractive because of it.. and I had all the chips on the counter in the bathroom.. and I realized in the end of the dream in horror.. that with no teeth.. I can't sing.... It was a horrible dream, but I got up.. and got over it.. and came up and am trying to enjoy myself in the light of things..
I am in a computer lab at a dorm in Denton right now, it's 5AM.. I'm about to walk a few blocks to the 24 hour coffee shop. Tommorrow afternoon friends want me to go to Brownsville, Tx with them to thrift shop and celebrate my friend Jaye's b-day. I think I might do it.. I'll be back sunday then. I suppose hmmm.. Yeah.. it'll be fun.
Tonight was a blast of hanging with alot of people I know up here, a productive band practice. and dancing in the streets, no literally. We ever were filmed, we are fools.. living vigorously outlandish lives because well.. because we drank to much caffiene and don't give a damn. Life is short.. enjoy it.
Otherwise.. last night was odd.. I should note. I got home.. and well a friend who's been living at my APT by permission of my stepdad was staying over, but he was suppose to be gone, because he's moved into his new APT. To synopsize...
He unplugged the computer in the living room.. so I would wake him up fixing it, and he could basically lecture me on three things.. and these are relative quotes. "Shawn, you don't do anything around this apt. except loaf around, don't help out at all.. you're nothing but a bum, you should just realize this and admit it"... and "Shawn, I've come to see what kind of person you really are.. and you're just a spoiled brat!".. "Shawn, it seems that all you care about is material things and getting your way and our friendship means nothing to you..."..
Then I tried to sleep, but couldnt because I felt horrible about myself.. and that stirred up my pre-existing insecurites about myself and what im doing with my life.. and then when I did sleep.. the whole 2 hours I got.. I had nightmares that my teeth were breaking off and falling out and I was worried that I'd be unattractive because of it.. and I had all the chips on the counter in the bathroom.. and I realized in the end of the dream in horror.. that with no teeth.. I can't sing.... It was a horrible dream, but I got up.. and got over it.. and came up and am trying to enjoy myself in the light of things..