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Okay so tonight my brother calls me and is like " so alex how's school " , " I'm like not bad failing math & science " . So basically to make this short he tells me that he is worried about me , im like ok & why are you worried , he's like because i don't want you to end up like my friend who was sick . I go well if she is sick what is she now , he say's well she died , i go how did she die ( i no that isan't a nice way of saying it but it seemed right at the time ) he said she died " not naturally , not from a diesease " but she was " unhappy " & decided it was her time to pass on . He told me he didn't want to see me end up like her , he said it seem's like i am taking the easy way out of life & I've got to learn that life isnat't about fun & games . He kept telling me about how school is forming a struture for life & you have to build your way up , meaning your either going to fail or suceide , in my case i am failing & should pull myslef up. This was an intersting conversation , i now understand that my brother is just looking out for me , & " cares " about my future .
This made me think Hmmmmmmmm is my " lack " of caring in school over pouring onto my friendship side, i think it tis , i have this friend who i was never really that close with but was in some weird way we never considered eachother " best friends " but some how i ended up thinking she really was a best friend even though i don't like cadagorizing friends to best friends , i consider them all eaqualy then there are the few that i am close with . But anyways's we always had sleepover's talked about boys and all that yadda yadda good stufff , so when she decided to go to the same school i went to ( highschool ) i was excited thinking we can share friends, have lunch with eachother , and so on .. but everything didn't turn out like that we started being mean to eachother acting like we hated eachother . Were the type of friends you dont really have inside jokes with, were the type that laugh's at stupid things that neither of us understand . So my point is never take a friend like this forgranted even though things may have changed , we'll always be sister's .
......weird post .