im wondering if whether i should post this or not

[ale_la_tamale]

they say that truth hurts, and seriously the other day i did feel it. when someone you love very much tells you your flaws, theres nothing you could do about it. at first i was angry, then i just got sad. it really did hurt. the thing is that you know they care, its not because they hate you, they are just telling you things that others are afraid to tell you. the only other times ive felt that way are through my mother, and both of the times i couldnt say or do anything about it, because it was the truth. and i felt so exposed, like someone just got me and put me inside out, and i was left there to look at myself and well..it hurt. i guess its part of my growing, i guess its part of what it is to become less self-centered, i dont know what it is. and its too late to go to the past and change everything youve done, things you never noticed that may have bothered others.

and i wonder if its in my character, and i want to change it so bad. and its just me being human, but yet i dont like it. i guess since i think that others may not accept me for a certain trait that i dont accept myself. its enough to make me just want to stop talking.

and i really like this journal to write these things down, but i know im not going to write it all because this is something i have to find out for my own. ive never wondered about this certain aspect, and it just confuses me. i know who i am but i still wish i was more conscious of my negative things.

but not just that, i learn everyday more and more about something. were constantly learning you know? anything...and i learned that in and relationship you shouldnt always say positive things to others..friendships shouldnt be sugarcoated..i wish that people were more open about their negative feelings about others. it would save us a lot of time, dont ya think?