That "content" image is stuck in my head again
An update on topics first relayed here.
I've been aware for awhile that some of you are growing in different directions than I am, and I'm quite pleased by this--glad you're moving on in your lives. And I just wanted to let you know one last time how grateful I am for everything each of you has done for me in my life. I'm honored we could be friends. If you ever need anything, let me know; I'm sure I'll still be pleased to offer what help I can. Even if we haven't spoken to each other in a while, worry not. If I considered you a friend here, such ties will carry. (When things change, I'll be certain to let you know as well.)
I will also be doing my best to still be open to you as much as I can; I need to work on this in general, and if I can't be open to friends about myself, even where we differ, then I've a meritable load of work ahead of me.
I've decided a few things, too. Pertaining to the music business: I simply feel no need to extend my abilities in this direction with my flute. I had decided this earlier, and then the audition results came out. Apparently, I had a really good audition (yeah, I'm surprised too) and felt pressure since last Wednesday to take lessons and buy a new flute and become a music minor and join flute choir and everything all over again because how well I seated. Again, once I stopped thinking so hard on it and just listened to myself, I have been able to realize the truth that's been there the entire time. I've other tasks more important. While I regret letting down Dr. Lovejoy and Zoe, for I'm sure they're a bit "let down" whenever anyone doesn't focus on music, I would rather play my whistle over my silver. Even more, I'd rather do other things.
Regarding that: I've decided to jump right in and try to join an organization. I realize I can be recklessly swift with deciding some things, but whenever it's something very different and very big, I am not. Perhaps it is time I finally am. If I focus too much on it, I'm sure I'll convince myself not to do it, and that wouldn't be right. It's time for my life to go to a new level. =)