State Of The Sanity Address
I think these last two weeks have been a strong and harsh lesson to me. I'm learning things about myself, others, and general interactions overall. I may have turned 21 back in 2004, but I'm finally realizing what it means to be an adult.
Especially if I think about the events of the last two weeks. I see what I did, how I reacted, and in general, it was a rather poor showing. I'm not too happy about what happened most of the time, and not happy about how it happened as well.
However, bygones will be bygones. What use is it to dwell on useless emotions of the past? They only serve to distract me and depress me. Looking forward, planning ahead and working constructively towards it is what will make me a better person.
Not to say that the past events didn't hurt me or affect me. They did. When I'm bored, I find myself still drifting back to those thoughts, and send the pain stabbing through me again. The silly thing would be to make myself busy at all times to stop thinking, or drink away the brain cells that obsess over things like that.
Neither of those are quite correct as far as options go. I need to be more constructive, and deal with problems when they happen. Not after. Not much after.
Currently, I'm :
1. Working on a play.
2. Working on Stand-Up Comedy material.
3. Studying hard [maybe this one should be first ;)]
4. Setting up my Improv plans.
5. Doing my daily cardio-workout.
6. Helping my mother get stabilized through this fight with my father.
7. Waiting anxiously to get started at Home Depot when they finally receive my background report [c'mon guys, 12 days!]
8. Not worrying about the fact that I'm single or no one loves me. [This is a big one.]
Now mind you, most of these are changes I've been dealing with or thinking about since Monday, so it's not completely a new thing. However, I hope that those 8 things keep me focused on my life and it's future; not it's miserable depressing past.
Z: Sane? Close enough.
Especially if I think about the events of the last two weeks. I see what I did, how I reacted, and in general, it was a rather poor showing. I'm not too happy about what happened most of the time, and not happy about how it happened as well.
However, bygones will be bygones. What use is it to dwell on useless emotions of the past? They only serve to distract me and depress me. Looking forward, planning ahead and working constructively towards it is what will make me a better person.
Not to say that the past events didn't hurt me or affect me. They did. When I'm bored, I find myself still drifting back to those thoughts, and send the pain stabbing through me again. The silly thing would be to make myself busy at all times to stop thinking, or drink away the brain cells that obsess over things like that.
Neither of those are quite correct as far as options go. I need to be more constructive, and deal with problems when they happen. Not after. Not much after.
Currently, I'm :
1. Working on a play.
2. Working on Stand-Up Comedy material.
3. Studying hard [maybe this one should be first ;)]
4. Setting up my Improv plans.
5. Doing my daily cardio-workout.
6. Helping my mother get stabilized through this fight with my father.
7. Waiting anxiously to get started at Home Depot when they finally receive my background report [c'mon guys, 12 days!]
8. Not worrying about the fact that I'm single or no one loves me. [This is a big one.]
Now mind you, most of these are changes I've been dealing with or thinking about since Monday, so it's not completely a new thing. However, I hope that those 8 things keep me focused on my life and it's future; not it's miserable depressing past.
Z: Sane? Close enough.