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So, with all those vacations and holidays and work and kanji wars and watching Torchwood from episode 1, I haven't been sitting much. This is pretty noticeable. Insanity kicks in. The brain starts making up crazy stuff like 'this sucks and will suck forever' or 'I am running out of time and must get pissed off if I waste even 10 minutes of it' (time for what? unclear). Funny enough, I can see this kind of thinking pretty clearly (all that sitting was good for something), but, for some reason, I get attached to being miserable and continue being in that state. At some point, brain even begins to make up thoughts like 'you want to make me happy? noooo! why would I want peace and quiet, I'd rather be moping here in the corner! you can't take that away from me'. It's funny, I love sitting, but sometimes the mind just tricks me into not sitting.
So a couple of days ago I sat. It was like taking a nice hot shower after digging ditches for a week. That's pretty much the only way I can describe that feeling.
Going to Tibet House tomorrow to listen to Chökyi Nyima Rinpoche (no, I cannot pronounce it either) teach about 'Life During Meltdown'. Should be good. Should also inspire me to sit daily, dammit.
So a couple of days ago I sat. It was like taking a nice hot shower after digging ditches for a week. That's pretty much the only way I can describe that feeling.
Going to Tibet House tomorrow to listen to Chökyi Nyima Rinpoche (no, I cannot pronounce it either) teach about 'Life During Meltdown'. Should be good. Should also inspire me to sit daily, dammit.