"My words are falling apart in spite of me. I'm stepping out of the light so she can't see."
Slightly over two weeks ago, my mum came down with another bad cold with symptoms that varied all over the place. I cooked most of Sunday dinner - which is the one tradition home-made sit-down meal for everyone in our house - last and this week. I also drove my mum to pick up a doctor's script, which was my first time driving since I got my license. Considering it's been months, it wasn't as terrible as I'd imagined, but I'm still not skilled by any means.
Shortly before I left with my mum, my dad and I had a short conversation in which we discussed my hesitancy to drive. 'But I don't deserve confidence.' My dad laughed and asked me how old one had to be before they could be confident in themselves.
Perhaps it's foolish, but that's truly how I've been feeling lately. I've been lurking most of everywhere, which isn't unusual given my introversion and hermit retreats, but it's more than just that and shyness this time. I don't feel like I have much to offer and am more paranoid and hypersensitive to others' reactions than usual. I read about the terrible economy and see all the people around me that are more experienced and skilled and driven than I that don't have jobs and wonder what on earth chance I have.
At the same time, it would be nice to meet new people who share some of my newer interests (largely Batman), but because of my own skittishness and insecurity, it's a bit like shooting myself in the foot.
Self-guilt and inner turmoil aside, I was able to work with overlithe and heatherhouse to help put together a three-part Book Club special edition for batmanjoker that focuses on different versions of the Joker's origin story. I covered Lovers and Madmen this week, heatherhouse has The Killing Joke next week, and overlithe's finishing with The Jokester's Last Laugh. I'm quite excited and am trying to push myself out there to be more social (hopefully without the awkwardness); there are a number of members of the community that I admire and love reading.
I came down with my mum's cold slightly less than a week ago. It's not terrible, but generally blah with varying symptoms. I don't know why, but I've been sick more often this winter than I have since . . . oh, eleventh grade?
Finally, if anyone who is interested hasn't heard, scans_daily was suspended from LiveJournal this past Friday. I hadn't known about the community for very long and the high posting rate meant that I never really kept up with it, but it introduced me to a number of new series, including Stormwatch, The Authority, Silver Age Batman, Golden Age Superman, the_dark_cat's comics, and the Super Dictionary. I was sad to see it go even though I understand why it was suspended.
This entry is rather less organised than usual; my apologies.
Shortly before I left with my mum, my dad and I had a short conversation in which we discussed my hesitancy to drive. 'But I don't deserve confidence.' My dad laughed and asked me how old one had to be before they could be confident in themselves.
Perhaps it's foolish, but that's truly how I've been feeling lately. I've been lurking most of everywhere, which isn't unusual given my introversion and hermit retreats, but it's more than just that and shyness this time. I don't feel like I have much to offer and am more paranoid and hypersensitive to others' reactions than usual. I read about the terrible economy and see all the people around me that are more experienced and skilled and driven than I that don't have jobs and wonder what on earth chance I have.
At the same time, it would be nice to meet new people who share some of my newer interests (largely Batman), but because of my own skittishness and insecurity, it's a bit like shooting myself in the foot.
Self-guilt and inner turmoil aside, I was able to work with overlithe and heatherhouse to help put together a three-part Book Club special edition for batmanjoker that focuses on different versions of the Joker's origin story. I covered Lovers and Madmen this week, heatherhouse has The Killing Joke next week, and overlithe's finishing with The Jokester's Last Laugh. I'm quite excited and am trying to push myself out there to be more social (hopefully without the awkwardness); there are a number of members of the community that I admire and love reading.
I came down with my mum's cold slightly less than a week ago. It's not terrible, but generally blah with varying symptoms. I don't know why, but I've been sick more often this winter than I have since . . . oh, eleventh grade?
Finally, if anyone who is interested hasn't heard, scans_daily was suspended from LiveJournal this past Friday. I hadn't known about the community for very long and the high posting rate meant that I never really kept up with it, but it introduced me to a number of new series, including Stormwatch, The Authority, Silver Age Batman, Golden Age Superman, the_dark_cat's comics, and the Super Dictionary. I was sad to see it go even though I understand why it was suspended.
This entry is rather less organised than usual; my apologies.