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[albynoplatypus]

september 6th

A hot day, an even hotter night
for me.
hot with emotions
negative
and palpable

I sure wasn't tasting a rainbow

I got the call around 6pm
an invitation
left open
the decision was up to me

To drive or not to drive
a question very relevant
considering the gas prices
Pheonix....what's in Pheonix?
that night, a chance
for happiness
or closure.

Flip a coin
heads
I go.

40 minutes later I arrive,
unsure of what to expect
surprised by what i found

a house of drama

not the kind that you find on stage
or in highschool
the kind you find in back alleys
and trailer parks
not the good kind

doesn't everybody's mother
teach them
not to hit women?

apparently not

my stay was brief
things where going well
but a call came in
the antagonist
the center of all the pre-existent turmoil

attention diverted
exceptions made
no longer am i the center
i'm left, stranded
in a strange house
so i make my escape

i'm in the car
flip a coin
heads
follow her

she's hiding around the corner
an argument breaks out
more drama, via phone
i'm getting impatient
i demand some attention

she tells me
"i need privacy"
bullshit
i won't leave
antagonist hangs up
she blows up in my face

it's my fault
always my fault
she runs away
more drama

in the car, about to leave
flip a coin
heads
stay

wont go in the house
call her
the blaming starts right away
i'm scolded
verbally punished
for near nothing

then she drops a verbal hiroshima
no need to flip a coin
go, leave, drive

gone

flip a coin
fall out of love

i'm free/alone