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I just spent almost an hour on the phone with the ex-boyfriend who I dislike. This is not a good relapse. Damn. How are you supposed to get over someone that you continue talking to? There is only one way to get over someone, I think, and that is to stop talking to them. Steve deleted me from his instant messenger list tonight, and I think that I might do the same with him. Maybe if I don't see him online I will think about him less. I tried to convince myself, and him, that I hated him tonight, but it didn't work. Sometimes I wish that we had had a really bad, nasty breakup. It would be easier to hate him and move on than to realize that we're going in different directions and get over him. I tried to pick a fight with him while we were talking online earlier tonight, but it didn't work. Why can't it just be easy?