u could slit my throat and with my last breath i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt...

[albinochick]

Alright.... here we go... adams gf brttany gave him a choce he could remain being friends with me and lose her or keep her and lose me as a friend.... he choose her.... It hurst so bad u all have no idea at all... He was my best friend he ment everything to me and he still does he always will u can't take that away. And now derek too my other best friend wants nothing to do with me which i don't completely understand maybe i'm just retarted as they all claim but it really don't make sense. They've both been ther through everything me going into foster care, parents rights being terminated, failed adoptions, crazy suicide attempts, all this crazy stuff with guys i mean just so much and now its all gone in one ight. last night i lyed awake and just let every memory i had of me and adam run through my head no matter how insignificant it was. stupid move i can tell u that one..
its so horrible i feel like actually left me correct myself i have nothing to live for now derek and adam were my entire life. i'm just going through the motions of it all now i don'tr know what to do or how i'm supposed to on with allt his.
Ho do u just decide one day that a girl u've only dated for a couple months is more important than someone who's supposed to be ur best friend. it just don't make sense to me at all... i miss them so much...