If I were to die tomorrow would you even shed a tear???
Lets see here i got a job today everyone... I am now an offical mcdonalds worker woop go me. lol. I hope i atleast have one day off this weekend though an no one has plans because i want to see adam. Its been almsot three weeks and i'm havin adam withdraws. besides my room is losing the cigarette smell lol. School is really gay my teachers should be shot who the hell has ever heard of having this much homework its absurd. thats what i get for being all perfectionistic i guess. Speaking of perfectionistic, i'm gettin really really deppressed with my appearance here lately. Its like i'm never pretty enough ya know. I feel like i'm a fucking blimp but yet i can't force myself to stop eating its horrible it really is i wish i had more will power i really do. And now that i'm working at mcdonalds i get like a 25% discount which is not going to help the situation grr... I dunno anyone wanna be diet buddies? lol. i need some sort of motivation.... hmm i'll think of something maybe like if i convincwe myself adam will like me more than brittany if i'm as thin as her it'll work... thats actually a pretty god idea lol. alright sorry for all the randomness later u guys.