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I really haven't updated about stuff lately. I find myself wanting to update almost every 5 minutes about something but then after I log in and all that stuff I just get lazy. I can't really explain it but I'm just lazy. Friday night we went to see Sin City which I didn't think I was going to like but I actually did. It was quite entertaining. I think it showed the bond that people have and how strong it is and that nothing can break it. After that we went out for a couple of drinks...I only had about 3, and they weren't strong at all like the time with Marc. I decided that it was about time that he should know why I don't drink like most people. Although I told him, that doesn't mean I'm ready to share it with the rest of the world. Let's just say it wasn't good and has caused some problems. He totally understood and promised not to influence me or make me feel pressured to drink, and that meant a lot.
Saturday we spent all day at the beach and did nothing but go in the water and work on our tans. Even though I have a good body, I am really insecure believe it or not. I mean don't get me wrong I'm proud of how hard I've worked but I still feel that people are just stareing at me sometimes. It makes me nervous and if I'm wearing anything tight it makes me want to put on the biggest sweatshirt I can get my hands on. I take comments well from others, well only when they're positive. Back to the point. Chris bought me a speedo and wanted me to wear it, on the beach. I wasn't too thrilled about the thought and actually was affended. He told me that he used to be that way and how hard it was to get over it. He told me I should face it and that their is nothing I can do because I look beautiful.
When the night time rolled around, my emotions started to run extremely high. I started to think about how could this be it? A week isn't enough time. He's a west coast guy and I'm a new yorker, that's all the way across the states. Then it donned on me; I should just embrace this moment with open arms and enjoy myself, and I did just that. We went out to dinner at a place called Tony Romas which I highly recommed if you go down there. Now for the sweetest part...he took me to a old drive-in movie theatre and we saw A Lot Like Love. Amanda and Ash did an amazing job, you guys made me teary. It was so sweet and we were the only ones there. We layed on top of the rent-a-car with the stars above and warm car to keep us comfortable in the cool air that blew.
Sunday afternoon we went our seperate ways. I was gate 13 and he was gate 8. We stopped at gate 8 and said goodbye, knowing in the back of our minds that we were probably never going to see each other again. He kissed me and then I stole a line from the movie as Chris started to say something "Don't...You'll ruin it." And with that I turned around locking my legs as I walked so I didnt faint. As I walked to my gate it felt like the longest stretch of hall I had ever gone down. So many things ran through my mind about how I should just turn around and go with him. Completely pick up everything I have in New York and just move with him. Be would it work out? Would we be together? How am I going to go back home and not have anyone in the other room burping the ABC's to make me laugh? In those distance of 5 gates I promised myself this wouldnt be the end and that I can't let go, not of something like this.
Tonight I'm leaving for India to be with Kristin. God I love that girl. She is probably one of my best girl-friends that gives me the best advice on my love life and makes me smile when she cracks jokes. Lame jokes, espcially when they're about me but I love her still. Thank you. And with that, I leave you to go and finish laundry so I have clothes for this trip.
Saturday we spent all day at the beach and did nothing but go in the water and work on our tans. Even though I have a good body, I am really insecure believe it or not. I mean don't get me wrong I'm proud of how hard I've worked but I still feel that people are just stareing at me sometimes. It makes me nervous and if I'm wearing anything tight it makes me want to put on the biggest sweatshirt I can get my hands on. I take comments well from others, well only when they're positive. Back to the point. Chris bought me a speedo and wanted me to wear it, on the beach. I wasn't too thrilled about the thought and actually was affended. He told me that he used to be that way and how hard it was to get over it. He told me I should face it and that their is nothing I can do because I look beautiful.
When the night time rolled around, my emotions started to run extremely high. I started to think about how could this be it? A week isn't enough time. He's a west coast guy and I'm a new yorker, that's all the way across the states. Then it donned on me; I should just embrace this moment with open arms and enjoy myself, and I did just that. We went out to dinner at a place called Tony Romas which I highly recommed if you go down there. Now for the sweetest part...he took me to a old drive-in movie theatre and we saw A Lot Like Love. Amanda and Ash did an amazing job, you guys made me teary. It was so sweet and we were the only ones there. We layed on top of the rent-a-car with the stars above and warm car to keep us comfortable in the cool air that blew.
Sunday afternoon we went our seperate ways. I was gate 13 and he was gate 8. We stopped at gate 8 and said goodbye, knowing in the back of our minds that we were probably never going to see each other again. He kissed me and then I stole a line from the movie as Chris started to say something "Don't...You'll ruin it." And with that I turned around locking my legs as I walked so I didnt faint. As I walked to my gate it felt like the longest stretch of hall I had ever gone down. So many things ran through my mind about how I should just turn around and go with him. Completely pick up everything I have in New York and just move with him. Be would it work out? Would we be together? How am I going to go back home and not have anyone in the other room burping the ABC's to make me laugh? In those distance of 5 gates I promised myself this wouldnt be the end and that I can't let go, not of something like this.
Tonight I'm leaving for India to be with Kristin. God I love that girl. She is probably one of my best girl-friends that gives me the best advice on my love life and makes me smile when she cracks jokes. Lame jokes, espcially when they're about me but I love her still. Thank you. And with that, I leave you to go and finish laundry so I have clothes for this trip.