People change and forget to tell each othersainteterrerDecember 17 2005, 21:25:38 UTC
Wow! First of all, thank you for answering me honestly, and for answering me at all. I appreciate this immensely and feel the need to state this.
I haven't forgotten you, but I have been loathe to visit MHS. I need more time away, a few decades, maybe. I don't miss the place so much as I miss some people.
So much has been happening in my life, and it has been such a while since I last talked to your or saw you or wrote to you that I don't know where to begin.
I'm leaving for New Mexico in January. I'm excited about that. I don't know if I will come back to St. Louis. It doesn't feel like home even tho I've been here for a while.
Normal. 1650, "standing at a right angle," from L.L. normalis "in conformity with rule, normal," from L. normalis "made according to a carpenter's square," from norma "rule, pattern," lit. "carpenter's square" (see norm). Meaning "conforming to common standards, usual" is from 1828. Normalcy is first attested 1857, originally as a mathematical term; normality is first attested 1849. Normal school (1834) is from Fr. école normale (1794), a republican foundation.
I am myself, a mystery. Some part of my ego is gratified by this. I have experienced anger recently. I love-hate this emotion and experiencing it.
My exploits are best expanded upon in an update later. Perhaps I will post to my blog.
People change and then forget to mention that they dont want to be your friend anymore.albanianchickDecember 20 2005, 00:23:45 UTC
yeah. i understand about the whole not wanting to come back to metro. Metro...isnt a fun place to be. I dont know how it was when you were a freshman but it sure isnt all that its cracked up to be. I dont understand why we are all working so damn hard, slaving over endless essays, homework sheets, memorizing countless lists of words that you will never remember later on in life, etc. We are all going to end up okay. We are all going to end up the same, more or less. How we get there is determined by the decisions that we make, but yes, eventually, it does not matter which road you take, both roads will lead you to the same destination. "two roads diverged in a yellow wood and i, i took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference." but where do the roads lead? do they not lead to the same place? The only difference is that one is more scary and one is less scary. ah. yes. i dont know why i just posted that. i've just kind of been thinking but not thinking at the same time lately. it's weird. but normal. hah.
you could beging by telling me why you want to go to New Mexico of all places. And which city are you going to? Anything else that you are willing to disclose is fine with me. I will read everything that you write to me, be it through lj or e-mail. (do write me an email...i love them.)
Anger? at what? how does it feel? do you feel it everywhere in your body? is it rage? or is it more of the mild, i-hate the-world-but-i-wont-do-anything-about-it type of anger? Do tel. I tooo have been feeling very angry lately. Not so much at the world, because i love the world for some reason. (had you asked me this a couple of months ago, my immediate reply would have been "i fuckin hate people and this world that we live in." but alas, that emotion has changed) I like people. they are not all that bad. Yes, there are times when they annoy me and bug me and anger me and frustrate me and dissapoint me, but that is part of being human, no?
I haven't forgotten you, but I have been loathe to visit MHS. I need more time away, a few decades, maybe. I don't miss the place so much as I miss some people.
So much has been happening in my life, and it has been such a while since I last talked to your or saw you or wrote to you that I don't know where to begin.
I'm leaving for New Mexico in January. I'm excited about that. I don't know if I will come back to St. Louis. It doesn't feel like home even tho I've been here for a while.
Normal.
1650, "standing at a right angle," from L.L. normalis "in conformity with rule, normal," from L. normalis "made according to a carpenter's square," from norma "rule, pattern," lit. "carpenter's square" (see norm). Meaning "conforming to common standards, usual" is from 1828. Normalcy is first attested 1857, originally as a mathematical term; normality is first attested 1849. Normal school (1834) is from Fr. école normale (1794), a republican foundation.
I am myself, a mystery. Some part of my ego is gratified by this. I have experienced anger recently. I love-hate this emotion and experiencing it.
My exploits are best expanded upon in an update later. Perhaps I will post to my blog.
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you could beging by telling me why you want to go to New Mexico of all places. And which city are you going to? Anything else that you are willing to disclose is fine with me. I will read everything that you write to me, be it through lj or e-mail. (do write me an email...i love them.)
Anger? at what? how does it feel? do you feel it everywhere in your body? is it rage? or is it more of the mild, i-hate the-world-but-i-wont-do-anything-about-it type of anger? Do tel. I tooo have been feeling very angry lately. Not so much at the world, because i love the world for some reason. (had you asked me this a couple of months ago, my immediate reply would have been "i fuckin hate people and this world that we live in." but alas, that emotion has changed) I like people. they are not all that bad. Yes, there are times when they annoy me and bug me and anger me and frustrate me and dissapoint me, but that is part of being human, no?
i miss you! i hope to hear from you soon!
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