why?
my heart was screaming and my blood was boiling but all i could do was sit and stare as i felt like crying like never before. i was pissed off. i was upset. i was depressed. and i was praying.how could God let this happen? and why? i hope she went home to him but why like this? why while bleeding trapped inside a machine?
on the way home from ihop we saw a bunch of cars stopped outside and some people in flashlights in someone's yard. it looked to me like a tent. it was a car. it had a streetlight freakin wrapped around it nailed to a tree with the top crushed down. i went to see. a guy just came out of the car. blood on him as he walked out with what seemed like a couple of scratches. the driver. apparently drunk. and he has the guts to ask for a cigarette and some water. i moved closer and they're looking in there. there's one more person. "ma'am ma'am can you hear me?" no response "get in there" two different people tried administering cpr while i held the bloody windshield away from the guy who's trying his hardest. no pulse. no response. yet no one gave up. and i felt so selfish afterwards. he got tired and asked if someone else knew how to do cpr and i'm just sitting there trying to decipher his words. another navy guy jumped in until the paramedics came. i just sat there. what the hell am i good for? they declared her dead. the driver was drunk. only two trees stopped that car from going into a house and taking someone else's life. i prayed and prayed the whole time. she was gone. and i or anyone else couldn't do anything about it. i feel worthless and really mad. one thing i'd want to do is to show that driver what i saw.
i swear if i ever hear any of my friends drive drunk i will personally stop talking to them for the rest of my life. you hear about it on tv, u see it in the news. but a lifeless body was right in front of me. i just wanna scream and yell and AAAAHHHHHHHH.
had audrey taken the bypass or gone faster or us leave earlier we could've been what that car hit. and still, i don't feel lucky.
on the way home from ihop we saw a bunch of cars stopped outside and some people in flashlights in someone's yard. it looked to me like a tent. it was a car. it had a streetlight freakin wrapped around it nailed to a tree with the top crushed down. i went to see. a guy just came out of the car. blood on him as he walked out with what seemed like a couple of scratches. the driver. apparently drunk. and he has the guts to ask for a cigarette and some water. i moved closer and they're looking in there. there's one more person. "ma'am ma'am can you hear me?" no response "get in there" two different people tried administering cpr while i held the bloody windshield away from the guy who's trying his hardest. no pulse. no response. yet no one gave up. and i felt so selfish afterwards. he got tired and asked if someone else knew how to do cpr and i'm just sitting there trying to decipher his words. another navy guy jumped in until the paramedics came. i just sat there. what the hell am i good for? they declared her dead. the driver was drunk. only two trees stopped that car from going into a house and taking someone else's life. i prayed and prayed the whole time. she was gone. and i or anyone else couldn't do anything about it. i feel worthless and really mad. one thing i'd want to do is to show that driver what i saw.
i swear if i ever hear any of my friends drive drunk i will personally stop talking to them for the rest of my life. you hear about it on tv, u see it in the news. but a lifeless body was right in front of me. i just wanna scream and yell and AAAAHHHHHHHH.
had audrey taken the bypass or gone faster or us leave earlier we could've been what that car hit. and still, i don't feel lucky.