Abstract & Concrete
Hello online journal. I don't need you but I need to write something (else) out. I'm entirely nervous. I'm finally putting myself out there in a totally non academically/artistic way. I'm going to do something about this guy I like. It's a lot harder than I thought.
And I thought it was horribly difficult.
But pacts have been made and I need to act before I scream. I really like him...but god I'm terrified. Let me explain.
I don't expect him to like me back, it is not the rejection that scares me (although we must all admit that would some way or another suck ass...) but the outcome. It's different, believe me. I just don't want to ruin this great friendship and make things awkward. I don't want him to "freak out" or something. Although I don't think he'd be like "OMFG THAT'S SICK! NEVER TALK TO ME OR YOU'LL PROBABLY JUST BE TRYING TO GET INTO MY PANTS OR SOMETHING!" But...I don't know. Taking a risk is scary.
But it's better than just waiting. I mean, I'd love to wait if I knew that good outcomes would come.
But I'm sick of waiting for those good outcomes. I need to do Something.
So, I just hope that
A.) I actually go through with this
B.) He doesn't freak out/things don't become werid
And extra credit.) He says something similar back.
God. I'm so freaked I don't know if I'm going to be able to sleep tonight....
At least tomorrow is just an AP test....Horrible timing! Oh well. I'm doing it.
The End.
Wish me luck?
And I thought it was horribly difficult.
But pacts have been made and I need to act before I scream. I really like him...but god I'm terrified. Let me explain.
I don't expect him to like me back, it is not the rejection that scares me (although we must all admit that would some way or another suck ass...) but the outcome. It's different, believe me. I just don't want to ruin this great friendship and make things awkward. I don't want him to "freak out" or something. Although I don't think he'd be like "OMFG THAT'S SICK! NEVER TALK TO ME OR YOU'LL PROBABLY JUST BE TRYING TO GET INTO MY PANTS OR SOMETHING!" But...I don't know. Taking a risk is scary.
But it's better than just waiting. I mean, I'd love to wait if I knew that good outcomes would come.
But I'm sick of waiting for those good outcomes. I need to do Something.
So, I just hope that
A.) I actually go through with this
B.) He doesn't freak out/things don't become werid
And extra credit.) He says something similar back.
God. I'm so freaked I don't know if I'm going to be able to sleep tonight....
At least tomorrow is just an AP test....Horrible timing! Oh well. I'm doing it.
The End.
Wish me luck?