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life is up and down up and down every few seconds, i find something to focus on in each phase of seconds, go up up up and then i find out something that negates it in some way, realizing my naivete and then go down down down, seriously every few seconds.
i'm teaching myself to love myself as i would "love" another person, inspiring self dependence/reliance and intimacy at every moment. i'm afraid of investing this kind of energy into another person ever again.
oh and I met someone last night, a coworker's father, with the most twinkling gentle eyes that told me after a long conversation about my plans for my life that if i prayed for him to get his royalty checks soon he would give me $1,000 for hawaii.... So as much as i do not like capitalizing off of oil (that's why he's getting the money) and do not like focusing my intention meditation on money, i am going to sit down and focus on how wonderful he is and how he will be more stable when he gets this money and how sweet of a gesture it is, and within that sincerity perhaps will be enough energy to get him what he needs.
peace and sweet love
i'm teaching myself to love myself as i would "love" another person, inspiring self dependence/reliance and intimacy at every moment. i'm afraid of investing this kind of energy into another person ever again.
oh and I met someone last night, a coworker's father, with the most twinkling gentle eyes that told me after a long conversation about my plans for my life that if i prayed for him to get his royalty checks soon he would give me $1,000 for hawaii.... So as much as i do not like capitalizing off of oil (that's why he's getting the money) and do not like focusing my intention meditation on money, i am going to sit down and focus on how wonderful he is and how he will be more stable when he gets this money and how sweet of a gesture it is, and within that sincerity perhaps will be enough energy to get him what he needs.
peace and sweet love