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take a breathe and calm down. There's things i want to say, but I don't know how. There are things that happen and I don't know whether I'm over reacting. Or maybe it's the fact that i'm there if there's no one else. I'd say that no one would understand what I think and how i feel...but that would be hypocritical. At least i tell people though. You want to know what goes on inside my mind? Here it goes. Shut up and listen. Byron...SHUT UP!
I've never had a lot of friends. Making friends is one of the hardest things for me. My entire world dissolved my freshman year and I had to work like hell to get friends again. Everything just slowly drifted away. Yes, I am aware that it was in part, my fault. But it comes to a time where you can't be with some people anymore. Sophomore year and the beginning of junior year were great. But it came to that point where you start to feel like you don't matter to people. For me, it's not something that you might be doing directly...what it always comes down to, is what people don't do. I think we all expect more of people than they can actually give. We expect that they'll do what we think they should. It's like when you sit home on a friday night and all your friends are out together doing something...and it never even crossed their mind to invite you. It's like that happening over and over and over again. I know i'll never understand what goes on in your mind and i know you'll never completely understand how i feel. The most any of us can do is make an effort.
I feel like i should be apoligizing..but for what?
I've never had a lot of friends. Making friends is one of the hardest things for me. My entire world dissolved my freshman year and I had to work like hell to get friends again. Everything just slowly drifted away. Yes, I am aware that it was in part, my fault. But it comes to a time where you can't be with some people anymore. Sophomore year and the beginning of junior year were great. But it came to that point where you start to feel like you don't matter to people. For me, it's not something that you might be doing directly...what it always comes down to, is what people don't do. I think we all expect more of people than they can actually give. We expect that they'll do what we think they should. It's like when you sit home on a friday night and all your friends are out together doing something...and it never even crossed their mind to invite you. It's like that happening over and over and over again. I know i'll never understand what goes on in your mind and i know you'll never completely understand how i feel. The most any of us can do is make an effort.
I feel like i should be apoligizing..but for what?