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"I’ve been down this road before
Walk out the door
Leave you on the floor
Looks like the rain’s pouring down on me
It’s drowning me now
All I want is to come back home
And this old corduroy coat it’s not keeping me dry
But I can’t think of what else to try"
you know when you were a little kid, and you were building a sandcastle at the beach? and there was that moment, where the sandcastle was about to collapse and all you could think was "no no no don't fall no!" and you did everything you could to stop it falling?
thats what my life feels like at teh moment. i know it melodramatic, but its true. i hate the course i'm doing, i hate the clothes i wear and the way i look, i hate the fact that because of the course i'm doing i can't change anything. i hate being broke. i hate not talking to my friends. i hate being sick and i hate being constantly exhausted and i hate the fact that all the fucking doctors and specialists still don't know what is wrong and it's been half a fucking year. i hate my job. i hate crytek and i hate the fact that my stupid pride wont let me do anything about all the things i hate.
and i hate the fact that when i was a little kid, all my motherfucking sandcastles collasped.
Walk out the door
Leave you on the floor
Looks like the rain’s pouring down on me
It’s drowning me now
All I want is to come back home
And this old corduroy coat it’s not keeping me dry
But I can’t think of what else to try"
you know when you were a little kid, and you were building a sandcastle at the beach? and there was that moment, where the sandcastle was about to collapse and all you could think was "no no no don't fall no!" and you did everything you could to stop it falling?
thats what my life feels like at teh moment. i know it melodramatic, but its true. i hate the course i'm doing, i hate the clothes i wear and the way i look, i hate the fact that because of the course i'm doing i can't change anything. i hate being broke. i hate not talking to my friends. i hate being sick and i hate being constantly exhausted and i hate the fact that all the fucking doctors and specialists still don't know what is wrong and it's been half a fucking year. i hate my job. i hate crytek and i hate the fact that my stupid pride wont let me do anything about all the things i hate.
and i hate the fact that when i was a little kid, all my motherfucking sandcastles collasped.