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HAPPY HELL WEEK EVERYONE....and let me tell you it is already worse then any hell week ive been in...it was before hell week actually started... fucking ass bitch big ben seriously hurt my back *cries* so now i can barley do anything and i feel helpless and unusefull. tim wouldnt let me help take that fucking ladder down today, and yes i know i shouldnt have even thought about helping to take it down, but still i felt so useless just sitting there. my back had me in tears and i hate that i hate not being able to help i was so afraid there wouldnt be enough people and something would happen and just sitting there watching was horrible. today just hasnt been a good day. i couldnt go to maria's party because i could barly stand up and i missed her sweet sixteen. when i said nothing could keep me from it. i feel so bad i cant take it. there is absolutly nothing to do just laying in bed and thats all ive been doing since ive gotten home. the play seems like its turning into a disaster and everyone has a feeling somthing bad is going to happen...i really really want timmy to show up but im kinda doubting he will. he probably doesnt want to just saying he will try so he wont hurt my feelings and then just not show up. my mom goes in for surgery on thursday and im going to be stuck at tech then too and what if thats the bad thing that everyone keeps feeling....like somthing bad is going to happen to my mom and i wont be there with her and oh god.....im just going to go now....